Life lately , #ups #downs #okay #hospitalvisits , got my own apartment 5 months ago , got my heart checked and said Iām good ! My health gotten better , working , living , and just trying to do right in life , I gained some weight when having tendinitis but thatās adjustable ššš¼
Over these last five consecutive months, I have been battling active torn knees causing loss of mobility. I am still dealing with level five tearing in my knees, a condition that can take anywhere from three to six months, if not longer, to heal. Itās called tendinitisāitās ripping in the knees. I must be as strong as an athlete, because only athletes experience this level of injury.
During this time, I was also leaving my fatherās home, while being ridiculed and mocked for creating a GoFundMe , raising awareness I wasnāt sure as to why GoFundMe was a competition. I was justified and made fun of, but when I stand up, I will stand up stronger.
I donāt have to make a post that screams Iām in pain. I wasnāt able to do minor tasks like getting up, walking, or standing. Most times, tears streamed down my face. Itās a battle.
I am still in my healing process, and I have already made awareness toward what Iām going through. I donāt have to justify my actions.
If anyone wants to say something slanderous, defamatory, or humiliating just because I donāt post every single dayāunderstand this: you look ugly, and you will stay ugly. Through all of this, Iāve seen peopleās true hearts and colors. When I heal, I will rise stronger, clearer, and more disciplined than ever before. āØ#awareness
Some things I admittedly miss ā before everything ā were acting, and downplaying so many of my own successes because I was told Iād never be good enough. I still remember the looks, the facial expressions, and the questions like, āAre you sure thatās what you want to do?ā This was shot two years ago with my scene partner, and it reminds me how much I love it. I hope to do many more in the future and keep going. #acting
14 months and still feels like yesterday memorial , Iād be lying this worse having level 5 tearing in my knees , shortly after mom passing I think the biggest deception was my dad abusing me physically , mentally , and emotionally having thought my dad had āterminal cancerā believing my dad the entire way only to find out to find out I had been lied to so the abuse kept going. To point out a restraining order on my dad. Thinking it was okay. One day Iāll be okay , everyday Iām just trying to heal #grief #death #dv #healing #hardship #domesticviolence #everything #pain #suffering #silentlyhealing
The day I took my shahada, the day my life changed , I grew up as Muslim and practicing the faith , i was strayed away from the path and everything lead me back to faith and Allah , this path choose me. Iām thankful and happy to be obedient to god , and my body being back to god , thank you to friends , family and loved ones took me back to faith , most importantly Allah