It has officially been one week since the
@buprismatics debut album, METAPHYSICAL came out! This project is so so so special to me and I wanted to take a moment to reflect on my experience putting this together.
Going into this, I was so excited because this would be the final encapsulation of my time in Prismatics. My #1 goal was to create a product that we would be able to look back on decades from now and relive our fondest memories in Prismatics. Each of these songs holds a special meaning to us and it was so important to me that I do them justice in producing them. While I knew this would be a challenging task, I had no idea what I was in for.
Those who know me or have worked with me know that I am a huuuge perfectionist. Especially when it comes to my own personal projects. With a project as meaningful as this one, I found myself, to put it bluntly, paralyzed. For about 3 months after finishing tracking, I couldn’t will myself to work on it. I wanted it to be outstanding, and I was sooo scared of messing it up and failing this group that has given so much to me over the years. Even when I finally got myself to work on it, the situation didn’t get much better. In every step of the way, my process was riddled with self-sabotage and criticism. It became very emotionally draining, and this passion project turned into a dark source of stress and self-hatred. I had many moments where I wanted to just step away from it entirely…. but that wasn’t really an option.
Over the 500+ hours I spent on this, I had to realize that this was not going to be perfect, or it would never get done. This meant learning to celebrate the moments where I felt I was growing as a producer, rather than simply criticizing all of my weaknesses. It meant measuring my success by the wonderful reactions I would receive from the group when I sent them mixes, rather than my personal expectations that would never be met.
With that being said, I have finally reached a place where I can truly say that I am so proud of what we have created, and more importantly, proud of myself for following through on this project and growing so much along the way.
Now, go stream METAPHYSICAL!!!
