Dear Laura,
The day you left us I was on the other side of the world + nothing seemed real.
I woke up to the most beautiful day in Australia, when I turned on my phone my stomach sank as I saw the flood of missed calls and texts from home.
It felt like I had been hit by a train.
I walked down to the beach and nothing made sense.
The sun was shining, dogs were running on the sand, there was so much beauty it hurt. I put my feet in the water and everything felt so raw. There was even a fucking pod of dolphins riding waves in the distance, like I had been thrown into some kind of parallel universe. I told myself that all of this magic surrounding us was you there with me, holding my hand telling me everything would be okay. The sound of the waves crashing was the only thing keeping me from completely losing it. One of the beach pups even cuddled up next to me while I cried until its owner came running over.
It was a beautiful dream and a horrible nightmare all at once.
I saw you a week before I left and said goodbye to you the week I returned home.
Trying to process losing you while still searching for joy + feeling grateful to be in an enchanting place with people I love was overwhelming.
You were in my heart everyday, making me smile and cry, from songs on the radio to ironic street signs + memories popping into my head.
I’m devastated + angry, but this grief is a reminder of how blessed I am to have had you in my life for 20 years. You’re the fucking funniest person I know, the generosity, kindness + pure love you gave to all of us was infinite and I hope you felt it back in return.
You were the centre of our circle and it will never be the same, but you will continue to be the glue that keeps us together. I feel so lucky to have heard your laugh, seen your magnetic smile, felt your hugs, your signature hand squeezes + witnessed your legendary dance moves.
I hope you are smiling and dancing on that rainbow with your Mama, until we see you again.
I love you babe. ✌🏽
36! 🪩 ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ, ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇs + ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴍʏ🫀ʙᴇᴀᴛ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀsᴛ 365 ✨
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cheers to the next trip around the ☀️ it’s gonna be a good one 🥂
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insta won’t let me tag you all, i guess there’s a love limit? you know who you are 🩷 xx
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