I am yours and you are mine. I love you with my whole being. We are all connected and I am so proud we chose each other. I choose you every day mom. You are divine. I love you. We love you. Can’t wait to squeeze you 🌀
M O T H E R
For this girl, my daughter, this soul, this magical being who chose me and all who will come after. There is nothing I would not do, no amount of sleep I would not lose, no length I would not go or discomfort I would not carry to keep her safe and bring her joy.
What a gift and privilege to carry the weight of motherhood in all its many forms. For those who have come before us and those who will come after. This is the greatest thing you will ever do, without exception. I don’t take for granted the gift it is, especially on days like today.
I wish we were making pancakes together today and picking flowers, but instead I held you through the highest fever you have ever had.
We would have been at a wedding, but instead we spent the weekend in and out of a warm bath to keep you cool.
I hoped to sleep cuddled up with you reading our favorite stories, but I did not sleep because I had to make sure that you were okay.
And still, I would choose this. Every version of it. The version where we are barefoot in the kitchen with flour on the counter, and the version where it is just me and you in the quiet of the night, my hand on your back, counting your breaths. Motherhood is not the highlight reel. It is the in-between. It is the showing up when no one is watching, when there is nothing pretty about it, when the plans you made dissolve into something quieter and harder and more sacred than anything you could have planned.
There is a particular kind of weight to doing this as a single mother, with your people far away. No one to tap in. No one to bring you a glass of water while you rock her back to sleep. You learn quickly that you are the whole village some nights. That love can stretch farther than you ever thought it could, and that your own two arms are somehow enough, even when you are running on nothing. You miss your mom. You miss your sister. You miss the hands that would have helped. And you find that you can do it anyway, because she is yours and you are hers, and that is the beginning and the end of it.
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I have been traveling so much the past couple of months and I always get a little bit nervous when I have to leave my animals, but I am very grateful that I got to meet Tiffany this year who has taken such incredible care and has helped train both Waylon and Dolores. Tiffany is an incredible trainer, but also does Board and trains and sometimes my dogs don’t even wanna come home because they have so much fun. Beyond grateful and if you were looking for help, she is in the Boise area and is amazing. @happy_tails_k9_training
Take me back to paradise. I feel such abundance and gratitude for my life. Always working to spiral 🌀 deeper into myself into my loving, my magic. Manifesting so much at a speed that is blowing my mind. Life is good.
What are you grateful for.
