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12/2025: reevaluating my relationship w social media & maybe i’m making it 2 deep bc it’s more than a tool to me—such thotful connections/moments connecting 2 ppl yet also emotional devastation w relationships naturally/unnaturally deteriorating idk i don’t rly wanna believe something w that sort of cathartic potential is only a tool of subjugation/oppression, rampant consumerism, & informational violence anyway something i thot abt was that every single person i found most interpersonally grating irl also were ppl who singularly post pics of themselves on their grid & perhaps i’m just a judgmental bitch taking how ppl use social media 2 srsly & bigass jump in logic & there’s no actual correlation between these 2 behavioral patterns but anyway this past yr i wanted to see if i’m like missing out on something (in a kinda “i’ll have what she’s having” & “i should check my biases” sorta way) so i committed to trying it out & honestly i just found it kind of boring and felt blasé to post the same subject over and over and over again like do ppl not just get bored of looking at their own face/body conforming to the same aesthetic standard repeatedly? do ppl just prefer looking at my face? i did unexpectedly find a lot of joy w directing my friends (less so directing myself) and learning more abt photography/editing (tho i imagine it has a lot more to do with documenting concerts & editing food i cooked photos v fast and regularly) & like having a vision of what a moment could look like captured for an esoteric audience but i don’t think that’s what the avg user of social media is thinking about—i don’t find my face very interesting like if anything i think the things i observe/create/make meaning of are faaaaaaaar more interesting to see and consume in a parasocial/fomo/curatorial sorta way anyway these are my thots looking back over this year & i look forward to using my face/body as an intentional choice/curated aesthetic medium again instead of seeing it constantly as the hero pic in a carousel lol no wonder ppl have self image issues perhaps I’m still a judgy bitch but hey if posting urself doesn’t give u hella dysphoria? power 2 u! anyway hi if u read this all

11/2025: thankful and lucky and vibrant

10/2025: rip 2025 you will and will not be missed

09/2025: 🥦✨

08/2025: it’s a girl

07/2025: how come no one fucking tells u how much a pain in the ass it is to replace ur drivers license

6/2025: lol i got tired of seeing my own face on the grid

05/2025: how do i train myself to stop defaulting to 🥴 as my expression in photos

4/2025: what is my lore

3/2025: am I the pikachu or is the pikachu me

2/2025: am i now an insufferable gay where the grid is only pictures of himself

1/2025: have i already experienced twink death