It's a journey
Sometimes I wonder if you know me yet, if you always have or if we're discovering a new knowing together.
I wonder if you miss me like I miss you, cherish the new like I do, grieve the old like I do.
There are moments when you're peacefully sleeping and I'm feeling the softness of it all, the tiredness of it all, the beauty of it all sinking heavily into my bones. The calm moments are an offering of how much I can let in. Can I listen? Can i break through the itch of being busy, of the endless to do list. Let's switch it off, dial it down and sink into the depths of you, of me, of us. There, we can be soft together, we can be happy together, we can discover the world and ourselves together. Again and again and again.
Mother
Look beyond the familiar features
You will see her
In the eyes she is there
Shimmering a little differently
A well has openedĀ
Unconditional
SelectiveĀ
A softness emerged
A confidence
A resilienceĀ
She is fierce
She is unflinchingĀ
She is fragile
For you she is a voice
A gate keeper
A safety net
She thinks less
She acts more
Her energy spent
She is instinct
She is raw
Drifting from one to the next
She does not question
Until she questions herself
The eyes have been touchedĀ
Since you layed on her chestĀ
Looking up
Your world and hers
Connected by a gaze
How wonderful
Meeting someone
You have always known
December 2025
I wasn't watching when it fell
The last hint of one now two
Sitting on the sill
Softly grazing the void
What once was full
Now devoid
The filling moved
From stomach to chest
Deeply grieving
Lamenting left
Moving right
Every moment out of sight
A realisation
For you, and me and he
Grabbing hold to every breath
Donāt blink
Don't move
I'm not ready
I haven't fully felt it yet
But again another wave
A new sensation
Another crave
For sleep
For noise
I will take it all
A warm cuddle
A breast engorged
Too much
Never enough
All at once
We live in love
October 2025
Lungs shift with air of a new voice
A mother's tongue birthed before the babe
Inhaled deep, she sits in wait
Stories stir her awake
Thrusting upwards in a world unbeknownst
She is unwavering and unbothered
Fueled by an incipient flame
September 2025
Floating on a stream of consciousness
As days drift from one to the next
Tables turn and times change
Trust given and receivedĀ
A bounty of gratitudeĀ
An urge to retreat
While leaves fall and shawls drape
Amber lights flicker through trees
Cold air catches my chest
As steaming cups swirl
And spices fill the air
We fall backwards into soft fabrics
Warm hugs and gentle sounds
A hum of times to come
A whisper in need of ears
With each day closing
We sink deeper
Until the window opens
And doors close
We turn in
Tune in
Switch off
August 2025
We move like water
Different from one day to the next
Trickling down streams
Rushing over waterfalls
In a well searching for light
An ocean shimmering softly
Making puddles and spilling over edges
How it fills me up
Carries and floats
Pulling deeply
Pausing gently
Cleanse the vase
Nourish the seed
Embrace the chaos
Softly we breathe
Fully we sink
July 2025
Full but never filling
A boundless discovery
My stillness Is your playground
We breathe together, moving with the tides
Drifting in the winds of change
Growing with each wave
Vast is the journey ahead
Precious are the moments
Saving sight as a keepsake
Tokens to hold when tides change once more
Forging a memory of the times we are one
Sinking into my fabric, my bones
We wrap ourselves up
A cocoon just for us
Emerging as two
Enveloped by the ineffable
June 2025
Standing in the doorway
Finding stillness in between
Stretching into a hallway
A threshold becomes a place to be
Taking steps
Tracing fingertips on walls
Witnessing notches in the skirting boards and scuffs in paint
Peering through windows
Lounging on uncomfortable chairs
This place is worn
Many have come before me
But to me it is nrand new
I delight in the discoveryĀ
Looking back at the room i came from
Seeing the room ahead
Both different but familiar
I think i will stay here for now
This hallway may not be a home
But its right where i need to be
May 2025
Waxing crescent in the darkness
We forget how bright the moon can be
When the lights are off and the curtains are closed
As we hold our hands as tightly as our breath
Only to gasp at the beauty
In a path that's always changing
A flutter breaks the silence
Flowing with the tide, we push and pull
Chasing the ocean, facing the fresh salty lashings
Inhaling the possibilities
Exhaling with trepidation
At the crest lay hope and grace
Dishing out we serve ourselves first
I see myself first
Nourished with kindness
Embodied future
April 2025
From the shadows we danced
Tenderly I swayed
Weaving through days
Touching the sides
Softening and expanding
They stretch out wide
Casting lines between times
Creating space for more
Making way
March 2025
I always thought when i broke it would mean repair
When the cracks began to show i held them tight
As they widened and the light seeped in i knew
How wrong it was to think of anything as broken
We make space for the new, the growth
With more to give, more to receive we expand
And our world expands with us
