Here is the debut to those who still haven’t seen my new hair yet. I included the photos & videos of the day I went to go donate it. I like the new look & I’ve been receiving so many compliments about it! The charity wanted 14in of hair & I ended up having 18-20 inches taken off instead lol 🤭
Some child is going to receive a beautiful wig this holiday season, if not, sometime early next year. Thank you to those who helped me by giving me advice on maintaining & taking care of my hair. Also a big thank you to those who informed me that Locks of Love charges for their wigs & to instead donate to Wigs for Kids! I’ll grow it out to donate again someday again. But for now, I’m going to enjoy this new found freedom of not having long hair 👁️👄👁️
Here it is. A post with a chronological order of my hair growth. From the first photo of when I buzzed it on August 11, 2017, all the way to the most recent & last couple of photos of my hair before I donated it. 8.5 years of progression with the idea of donating my hair coming to me around the halfway mark. Shoutout to those who took some of these photos of me. Especially @luxphototx who took some great photos of me over the years & @faithfloresshoots for the ethereal looking photos of me towards the end!
The fits were fittin’ 😎
There are those who’ve known what 2024 was like for me. It was the most tumultuous year I’ve endured. Comparative to when I worked 2 jobs & lost myself in the process of paying my debts & having my camera equipment stolen.
In the journey of going through it all, I learned a lot about myself. I learned that I truly can & always will find a way to make something happen if it’s crucial enough to me. Even at the cost of sacrificing things I wanted or owned.
Learning what it meant to have my mother depend on me for more than what she initially ever needed to. Her vertigo debilitating her from doing things like driving or working. Waiting for disability to approve her condition. To learning that my father had cancer. To learning that my brother was on the brink of being broke because of him trying to help my mother & I financially.
The resilience I displayed was always prevalent, but I will not lie to you & say I didn’t want to give up often. I thought a lot about death & what would happen if someone were to not exist anymore. Whether it be myself, my mother, or father. The way life could’ve changed for anyone of us. I grew very unhappy of everything happening. So much so, I even thought about where I’d want my things to go in the event I wasn’t around. And I did. I would think about the details. Who would get what & what would go where.
I’m glad I didn’t finalize that list. I’m glad I’m still around. That I made it through that difficult time. I’m very appreciative to my closest friends. You know who you are. I’m appreciative to anyone who showed me kindness, love, & support.
If you’ve read this far down. You deserve a hug from me. You care. You care enough about someone else that isn’t you. You’re practicing empathy, concern, & the human condition. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Please be good to yourself & reach out to someone when you aren’t feeling so dandy. People care. People love you. You are worth listening to. Please, don’t forget that.
Old habits die hard. New ones form too slowly. I’ve seen the horizon of who I want to be, my ideal self. Though the ups may not last long enough, fleeting at best. I try my best to cling to whatever solace I can acquire. There’s a future in which I am happier more often & god dammit I want to achieve it. I will arrive where I’m meant to, even if it isn’t where I expected to be. It’ll all workout somehow in the end. I will figure it out .. I always do. Thank you to the friends that reciprocate energies with me, you are appreciated. If you’ve read this far down: you are capable of more than you may realize. I believe in you, truly, even if you don’t believe in yourself. I believe we can find splendor in failure should we choose to accept it & learn from it. Be safe please, you are loved & it would be tragic if one more light went out.
May 6th will be remembered forever. Thank you very much again @lolozouai for the splendid evening, you were captivating ✨💞 I would’ve loved to talk more about production & the record as a whole, but maybe next time we can 🤝🏼 (Couldn’t crop the videos properly, smh. Sorry!)
“There is no more intoxicating fantasy than to be extraordinary.” - Realize & Rebuild by Boundaries
Life has a peculiar way of treating me. It’s been sharp inclines & declines. I’m realizing I find it difficult to find equilibrium within myself & my life as a whole. Therapy has been helpful to some extent. The friend group I’ve found myself in has been a life altering experience as well. We become stronger when we spread love & kindness amongst each other. Thank you to everyone who has been kind, open, & authentic with me. It’s greatly appreciated & I hope I do the same for y’all. If you’ve read this far down, please remember that you make your mistakes, your mistakes don’t make you.
Ubiquitous serenity is present, you just have to move some parts within your life & find whatever it is that brings you solace. Last photo is from 2017, over 5 years ago. Before I buzzed my hair & decided to start going it August 11, 2017.
I hope you’re doing fine, Dear Viewer. I hope you find whatever it is you need or want to help you find your equilibrium. To find your next reason to smile or to grow. To really become the person you want to be, the person who deserves to be happy. I love & care about you to whatever extent our relationship takes us. I hope you also spread love & positivity within your life.
After nearly 2 decades of being alive, my Son, the most vocal & annoying cat I’ve ever had, has finally been laid to rest. Thank you for the memories, the headaches, the awkward sleep positions, the scaring me when you went to get my attention with your paw/claw combo. Thank you for basically being my brother considering how small our age gap was. Thank you for being cute, for being very loving, & most of all, being one of the things I looked forward to when I came home. I love you Cripple, Forever & Always.
There’s been an upwards trend as of late for me in regards to Quality of Life. Albeit, in terms of how content I am with my current standing & where my direction is headed.. that is an ever changing feeling of myself. I’m still very much on an unguided ship. But I just know wherever it is I may roam, wherever I may land, I will find whatever it is I’m consciously & subconsciously looking for. I wish everyone the best & hope y’all find some form of happiness from today.
