š¤ new to yāall, old to me. I LOVE me some @ToryLanez now yāall š„° Its 2017, this song had just came out and I didnāt care how sick I was, I was finna dance to this lol so I did. I couldnāt really get low or bonebreak while my body was in this weird moment ((this drove me a little crazy I canāt even lie lol)) but I still could flow š¤·š½āāļø watching this is hard cause I was able to do ish š¤¦š½āāļø but I still keep dancing through it all. No matter what you are going through, NEVER give up. No matter how hard things may be, there is always a way. When you feel like giving up, always go even harder. Itās these moments when we are at our lowest that help us grow the best if you allow your resilience to kick in šŖš½ Someone is waiting for you to quit, NEVER give them that satisfaction. Someone needs you to keep going as motivation, donāt ever let them down šš¤šš½ #GodFirst #GodsCrew #GodsDancers #Yahsua #Lupus #Love #ToryLanez #Chixtape4 #Warrior #GodsCrew #Passion #Dancer #Freestyle #SongOfTheDay #Art #Black #Ninja #Bubblesz #Queen #QueenPAC #NY #NJ #KillIlluminiti #DancingWithLupus #SSInfantry #BQueenism #Queenism š
As a super protectionist I often limited myself by not showcasing my gifts enough and being too hard on myself due to being discouraged that I donāt have much energy to fully execute the things I love or knowing I canāt do things as well as I used to or not being able to do some at all. Itās always hard starting over again because I compare myself to how I was instead of remembering that itās an accomplishment that I can do these things after all I have been through and these aliments that just been popping up one after the next after the next etc. Never forget that sometimes our less than is what someone elseās goals look like. To me I may not be doing much, may not be that good at the moment but there is someone still trying to obtain to this level and I have to focus on being grateful that I can still do certain things, that I can still dance and move. You always never really know who you motivating and how much your posts means to them. Itās okay to start over again, itās okay to not be good at things even if you have always been great at it, itās okay to struggle at times, itās okay to be stuck, itās okay to blocks, itās all normal and natural parts of life! You wonāt ever improve if you donāt allow yourself the space to make mistakes just makes sure you are learning from this. This is my first day trying to utilize my waist/hips since I typically focus on control and feet, to me it is blah butI hope yāall enjoy āŗļøššš½
#GodFirst #Jesus #LadyLupus #QueenPAC #Mystique #Queenism #Lupus #SSMP #Healing #Pain #Love
If itās one thing I am known for, it is definitely my strength, being a survivor. Iāve survived things most people would have died from, survived things most people never seem to bounce back from, survived things we donāt even talk about cause it would make people too uncomfortable. where does it come from? GOD! how did I obtain it? from endless pain, loneliness and confusion. Pain, something that we all go through yet for some reason try to hide it. the wise know itās necessary for growth and gives us power while those still learning their strength feel it is a negative aspect as to who they are. your pain does not define you any more than the things you have been through but itās what you chose to do with that pain that does. my pain is my power, it is my purpose, it is my truth, it is my testimony, it is simply, ME! do I go a day without pain, never but thatās something you would never really know because I turn my pain into power daily, only getting stronger time and time again. when I dance, it sometimes hurts OD but thatās one of the best ways I know how to turn my pain into power⦠here is to my journey back to dancing fully that I am happy to share with each and everyone one of you šŖš½ššš½
#GodFirst #Jesus #LadyLupus #QueenPAC #Mystique #Queenism #Lupus #SSMP #Healing #Pain #Love
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song : WasteLander by @mvstermindmuzik .
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this was a quick freestyle captured by @tj_pye@empyer_films
These last twelve months looked nothing like I imagined but I made sure to have fun and create every chance I got for sure lol. I spent much of it fighting for my life. Long hospital stays, treatments, and bed rest became my normal. But even in the hardest moments, no one knew until it got too hard to hide. I am deeply grateful for my family, friends and brothers who did everything they could to try and be there for me in their own ways, even under my circumstances. Above all, I thank God for being my strength and keeping me here when things were not looking so good a lot of the times.
While we still do not have all the answers, and we still do not know why the seizures began, I am forever thankful to be doing better and slowly getting my strength back. This year taught me that life is fragile, faith is more powerful than I ever knew, and the people who show up for you in your weakest moments are everything. Healing is not linear, but giving up was never an option! I am still here, still fighting, and stepping into this new version of my body with gratitude, resilience, and hope šŖš½ššš¼
THREE MONTHS POST BEING HOSPITALIZED AND HAVING SURGERIES!
Not a stranger to hospitals, but this was my first time experiencing this though. I canāt fully remember what happened, I just know I was having seizures. I went to the hospital twice. Couldnāt physically talk for almost a week, couldnāt walk for about two. Couldnāt eat for the beginning of my visit since they had to do tests and since then itās been hard to eat without smoking. I lost over fifty pounds at first.
They still donāt fully know whatās wrong with me fully but I did have some tumors and heart issues, they handled most of that while I was in the hospital.
Had to go to treatment for a good amount of time. It was hard for me to do certain things for a while but my brothers helped me and pushed me.
Everything still hurts OD! But Iām just thankful to be as healthy and capable as I am inspite of everything that occurred and all that is going on internally.
Just wanted to share this as a reminder that you never know what someone is going through. And also so you can see no matter what you are dealing with you can always overcome it all if you allow yourself to be strong enough to do such. It wonāt be easy, but very capable.
Last two are recent to show the improvement. I still have some ways to go though but God is good manšŖš½ššš¼
#God1st Lupus #LadyLupus #BubbleszHernandez #BubbleszNBedrest #QueenPAC #SSMP
MAJOR RAS BARAKA WAS WRONGFULLY DETAINED TODAY AT DELANEY HALL FOR āTRUST PASSINGā. WE ARE OUTSIDE OF WHERE HE IS BEING HELD IN HOPE TO GET HIM OUT ASAP!!!
Share and spread this around please because the news is lying about what occurred today. Smh.
#Newark #majorrasbaracka #SSMP rasjbaraka
Only very people knew but Iāve been pretty sick for over a year now and I just finished my last treatments two and half weeks ago. Itās been a journey to be 100% me again. My heart still is messed up but the rest seems to be doing better now and on the journey to being able to do everything to my full capacity again. My motor skills and cognitive function still are off and I have this heart monitor to rock now but still forever grateful. Itās been a while I could really dance for real without passing out or getting sick ššš¼
I am never one to really complain or speak about what I have going on, I just deal with it head on. But I just really hope I can motivate everyone to be more grateful for your health and take it more seriously!
Also, donāt ever forget how capable you are. You would be surprised all that you can accomplish when you just believe in yourself and stay consistent! šŖš½ššš¼
#Godisgood #Jesus1st #bubblesznbedrest #bubbleszhernandez #ssmp #ladylupus #bqueenism #god1st #dance #art