The boy with the filthy laugh.
My fifth book, "The Boy With The Arab Strap," is about my self-exploratic and introspection after turning thirty, As an openly gay man, nerdreloation and introspection after turning thirty,relationships with my family, acceptance, and the need to be needed.
Looking back over two decades of collected records, I tries to understand whether those records hide anxieties, fears, joys, sorrows, and feelings of loss that have never surfaced.
The zine uses old photos of my parents and family, highlighting the conflict of showing them a side of my life they are unaware of. Even though I am openly out and my family supports me, there still exists an awkwardness within the home where everyone knows but doesn't openly discuss it.
My 5th book “The Boy With The Arab Strap”
105mm x 150mm / 105mm x 70mm
Cotton Hard Covers, 54 Pages
The fourth zine is about life in Canada during 2019-2020. I wanted to go to a place where no one knew me, to bury myself in the snow. Unexpectedly, due to the lockdowns caused by the pandemic, I experienced true loneliness.
I could only join Zoom parties online, dancing in my room with others. At the end, the DJ would always play I Think We're Alone Now to say goodnight to everyone.
Because of the lockdown, the sense of time became less clear. Looking at the photos developed from that time, the memories are presented in fragments, like pieces that can be rearranged or recombined.
'I think we're alone now
There doesn't seem to be anyone around'
I Think We’re Alone Now
15cm x21cm #zine
This third Zine book is about Ireland from 2017 and 2018. The film these photos were taken on had expired, which led to overexposed and blurred negatives after they were developed two years later; just the same as how those lives seem unable to return to that brief period of time.
”Remember to send me a copy when you are done,“ he said. It was the last night in Ireland we were having a Dim sum. When the plane arrived at Sevilla at 5 o‘clock in the morning, a sunny street scene was there for him. In thinking of the downstairs dance hall at The Workman’s Club, which unlike the upstairs hall where pop music is played, the downstairs DJ always played indie rock, so there was no audience and the hall was always empty. The best thing is that he would sing on the stage alone, then we could dance like crazy on that empty dance floor.
“That‘s how it starts
We go back to your house
You check the charts
And start to figure it out “ - LCD Soundsystem I left a copy for A, but we no longer speak. ”If you need to, keep time on me“ 40 pages 21cm x15cm
All hand-sewn (hand-bound)
第三本zine是關於17年到18年在愛爾蘭的一些事情，當時拍的照片兩年之後因為底片過期的關係，就像現在那些似乎短時間無法回去的生活，曝光過度並且模糊。
「記得做完的時候寄給我一本，」A這麼說。在愛爾蘭的最後一晚跟他去吃了港式飲茶。早上五點的飛機，抵達塞維亞的時候傳了一張陽光普照的街景給他。
我想起了The Workman’s Club樓下的舞廳，因為不像樓上的廳播放著流行舞曲，樓下的DJ總是放著一些獨立搖滾，所以台下總是空的。但最棒的就是他一個人在台上放歌，我們就可以在空蕩的舞池裡就這樣瘋狂的亂跳。
“That‘s how it starts
We go back to your house
You check the charts
And start to figure it out “ - LCD Soundsystem
我留了一本給A，雖然我們已經不再說話。
“If you need to, keeps time on me”
40頁 21cm x15cm 全手工線裝
