cosmic situations

[Archive] Gospel Estudios, 2024.

In general I wouldn’t consider myself a very nostalgic person but sometimes my damn phone randomly throws at me some of these old pictures from the years I lived in the Netherlands and then I feel this crump in my stomach and wish I could go back and relive all those memories but I guess the problem is at some point in life you realise everything you already experienced you will never experience for the first time again like how fucked up is that? anyway these specific pictures are from my 27th bday which took place during covid lockdown when I decided to perform a symbolic suicide by smashing my own reflection on a mirror with the numbers 1993—2020 printed on it as everything was being recorded with an iPhone X and streamed on an instagram live lol unfortunately there are no recordings of the performance itself since it vanished the moment the transmission ended and the only documents left are these photos of the smashed mirror and a video of me rehearsing the performance in my garden a couple days prior to the bday anyway the point is that looking back I’m not sure what my intention at that time was but probably I somehow knew that a part of me had to die so that a new one could be born and funny enough I will always remember those days as the beginning of my spiritual awakening and since then I’ve been recreating that performance dying and being reborn every single day and more and more I have this feeling that I’m not actually in control of any of this shit and that I wasn’t sent here to hold the steering wheel but to jump on the passenger sit and close my eyes and stick my head out of the window and try to enjoy the whole damn thing so yeah whatever the hell I was trying to do on that tenth of may of 2020 I'm afraid it might have worked lol

I always find redoing your own website such a weird thing like how am I supposed to explain to you who I am as if I even knew myself lol but anyway I guess when you zoom out and observe all the work you’ve been doing over the years it somehow slowly starts to form the shape of something like in one of those connect the dots drawings… I’m not even sure myself what I’m drawing I just know I gotta keep going one dot after another and trust it will make sense at some point lol and sometimes it seems weird like when you mix two colors that aren’t supposed to go together and the contrast feels painfully wrong but for some reason you can’t stop looking either anyway I guess that’s what happens when u are born an artist and thrown into a world where houses are very expensive and your parents aren’t rich lol so yeah I guess what I’m trying to say is that the new website is finally live and that I hope you enjoy exploring and interacting with it as much as I enjoyed designing it. ah and also big s/o to my dear friend and long-time collaborator @carlosmayo.info for translating my design into an interactive experience, and to motion queen @alxacecchetto for bringing it to life in this reel. grateful for both of you <3

fragments of everyday life new website launching next week

@escuby.wav w/ @mouthwash.studio

grateful for a year and a half of great work, surreal memories and countless glasses of wine @mouthwash.studio 🤲🕊️ also excited to announce that from March on I will be available for freelance work again—operating both independently and in collaboration with other studios and agencies 🥸 let's work together!

twelve years married to the game 🔗

[Archive] Heliot Emil, 2023. w/ @carlosmayo.info cd @juliusjuul ad @fabiocaldera

[Archive] Bureau213, 2021. w/ @carlosmayo.info

[Archive] Marco Castro, 2023.

@canyoncoffee w/ @mouthwash.studio dev @gardenvarietyny