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this is the most vulnerable as I’ve ever been on the internet sharing that I am actively and consciously traversing deeper into the suicide portal. on this day, I called a friend who reminded me it’s okay to just be in it. sometimes you don’t have it in you to “regulate”. I didn’t. before even allowing myself to enter the portal, I was met with fear. sometimes I get so scared to enter the portal bc it feels all consuming, & it very much is. the suicide portal asks you to leave sanity, your people, the beautiful things that life has to offer at the door. then it throws you into the abyss, into the unknown of yourself. I think it’s especially scary for me as I have journey’d the last few years working so hard to walk self out from 16+ years of being stuck in the middle of the portal, & to be thrown back in… i am met with thoughts like “does it mean I haven’t done the healing work?” “am I taking life for granted?” “am I selfish?” my conclusion is no. sometimes one needs to go back into the portal to be reminded that sometimes part of life is to want to leave it & that is ok. sometimes my soul needs to traverse this part of myself to gain a new pair of eyes. *I am more stable now after therapy + tools* but I want to share for a few reasons: 1. the weight of the world is a lot rn, and this alone is a valid reason to enter the suicide portal. 2. to normalize in real time what entering the portal can mean & look like: u can be good one day & not the next & that’s okay. 3. I believe suicidality can serve as a tool— it’s about how u use it & how u see it. what is facing ur own mortality teaching u about u rn? what, if at all, did u value & does it still hold weight? 4. if you are also feeling the energy, you’re not alone. im walking with you. let’s talk about it openly, DM me. this doesn’t need to be an isolating thing. 5. I’ve been in therapy for 2 yrs+ & suicidality still impact me. Meaning sometimes u can do the “right things” & still be suicidal. I wonder how community can fill in the gaps? 6. Any portal u enter, u come out changed. I wonder if we framed it this way-keeping in mind time is not linear- what can it leave room for?

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My first baby is here to stay. A few ways you can purchase my chapbook: For Minnesota: 🧧11/3-11/12: spend time experiencing my short film interactive exhibit centering my explorations around suicide & purchase limited copies there. during gallery hours. @xiagalleryandcafe 🧧11/10 & 11/11: both book release performances you will experience my one woman show + a book signing at the end. pre orders available now in my bio link for this show. 🧧11/12: during my short film theater showing, come for a special book signing. time tbd. @manngrandviewtheatre For Florida: 🧧11/19: come experience my short film, one woman show, & book signing. rsvp in my bio link. Online: 🧧if you absolutely cannot pull up to any of my shows, my book is available for purchase on Amazon now! link in my bio. A Vietnamese translated version will also be available for purchase soon. Credits: Illustration: @questcalledkat Editor: @everything_zenchristian Đi Nguyen is a fiscal year 2023 recipient of a Creative Support for Individuals grant from the Minnesota State Arts Board. This activity is made possible by the voters of Minnesota through a grant from the Minnesota State Arts Board, thanks to a legislative appropriation from the arts and cultural heritage fund.

starting a new series: Suicide Portal Fits 🫶🏻 bc if imma choose to stay imma make it look sexy 💅 all jokes aside, when i contend with death in any way shape or form (suicide portal or not), what I come out of it with is ways I wish to use my free will to its fullest. tomorrow is never guaranteed, so imma try my best to make the most of it while I’m here if I so choose to stay here which has always included decorating and adorning my body in things that make me feel the most beautiful/handsome/sexy. cause if for whatever way- the earth absorbs me naturally or I willingly give my breath away - how do I want to be found adorned in? or, if it was my last day to live, how would I want my people to find me? defintely fitted up to the 9’s okkkkkkkkkkkkkk 🤌🏼 join me for this series 🌷 cause a b word bouta have fun with this one 🤝 link in bio for all jewelry pieces 🫶🏻 + want to get deeper and explore the suicide portal w me further? — the second Suicide Diaries Workshop is on June 23, 6-8 pm in Oakland. For QTBIPOC, BIPOC, and LGTBQIA+ comrades. Limited space. RSVP link in bio. 🦋 #suicideportalfits #fyp #ootd

• Join Palm Nguyen (they/she/he) @karmaklubllc in hosting ‘Suicide Diaries’ at The BoutiQue in Oakland June 23, 2026 from 6-8 pm🕯️ Suicide Diaries is a multidisciplinary platform to express without fear of pathologizing, psychoanalyzing, policing, or institutionalizing suicidal, death, dying, or grief experiences. bridging the gap of the lonely with community and community with the lonely. Using the elements to ground, this workshop anchors with the practice of ritual to carry folks into exploring the suicide portal through guided meditations, movement, film, altar tending, ritual making, and writing. This is for QTBIPOC, BIPOC, and LGBTQIA+ comrades who are suicidal, know someone who is, healthcare professionals, or those that are no longer suicidal but still are impacted by the experience someway. Where suicide can isolate, this space aims to gather. Where suicide is taboo, this space aims to normalize. Where death is unknown, this space aims to explore & honor. DATE + LOCATION: 🌱 WHEN: June 23, 6-8 pm 🌱 WHERE: Address emailed once RSVP’d submitted <3 make sure to add your email for the calendar invite 🌀 OTHER LOGISTICS: 🪴 PAYMENT (donation based. meaning there is the starting base cost and you’re welcome to donate more from there): - QTBIPOC and BIPOC: starting at $20 - LGBTQIA+ Comrades: starting at $25 - please write in description “Suicide Diaries” at payment Space is limited. RSVP link in their bio🕯️ From Palm: Those that know me know that I’ve been seeding suicide diaries since 2023, and I would say this might be a big reason I aim to stay a little longer. Suicide diaries is a project that was birthed out of my 17+ years of experience traversing the suicide portal and have had negative experiences with the healthcare industry around this topic. From the threat of being institutionalized, policed, shamed, religiously guilted, or personalized, you name it— I might’ve already been through it. From this space, anytime I talked about my experience, I’ve noticed more often times than not there was a gap between healthcare and the people. a gap between shame, blame, guilt, punishment and soul experience. *continued in comments🕯️…

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package an order with me (mind u I have no system created for myself just straight vibes and prayer) 🤲🏼 real talk I really just wanna take a moment to give flowers to the vision, and the execution. it has been a messy process. a slow one. a struggling up heel battle sometimes. intentionality is exhausting. not wanting to exist but still choosing to be here is exhausting. figuring out how I want to use this time while I’m here is phew yep you named it, exhausting. trying to figure everything by myself out, the business and creative side has been blood sweat and tears, and God (the Divine, Universe, Creatress) has been holding me through it all. being an entrepreneur requires faith. especially when the vision is something that has never been done before. my business is not just a regular business for a reason. it’s not just about the jewelry. it’s taking something beautiful and diving deep into the depths of the stories behind it. it’s about the moments I kept going and created something out of my own ashes. we now know I have not wanted to live for a lot of my life, so understand that when I find something that is my lifeline like KARMAKLUB is, know imma hold onto it and keep digging. purchasing from me isn’t just for the aesthetics (although my collections do be those gworlllsss), it’s sustaining a life where I can continue to dig and birth what feels so right. I’m so excited to keep watering all that is KARMAKLUB, thank you for the support in all the ways. 🌹 #smallbusiness #fyp #jewelry

Death By Drip tanks — hand painted by me. link in bio 🌹 additional features: 💿 scorpion ring 💿 bitch I’m a dog ring 💿 bob the builder ring - all stainless steel , water & tarnish resistant 🙂‍↕️ (tb to when I was rocking a mulllllly 🫦) #fyp #queerfashion #scorpiolife

update on my suicide portal experience since February 🌹 I just one second’ed it at a time everyday and somehow we made it to the end of April 🕯️ storytelling is probably the most ancient medicine we’ve got and I am grateful as I’ve shared my experience with suicide, how medicinal it has been for others. y’all sharing that you feel seen or emphasizing the importance of the work I feel pulled to do or sharing your own experiences within the portal, are anchors and medicine for me too. reminders I am part of a we, and we don’t have to be isolated in this experience. I could say so much about it, but especially for QTBIPOC+ folx, it’s important to me that we continue to share our experiences and stories — it’s not just a white thing. it’s normal, it’s valid, and it’s so welcome here. Suicide Diaries is a project that has plenty of tentacles, one of them being a community zine (physical and online) and we’re looking for : 🦋 any creative expression (illustrations, songs, film, poetry, essays, etc.) 🦋 indigenous medicine (from your culture or references of others with respect) on/for suicide 🦋 your ancestral wisdom around mental health 🦋 any medicine outside of the western system (herbs, recipes, songs, practices, etc.) that could be your own self created ones or passed down 🦋 books, film, videos, etc. to share around suicide 🦋 your reflections since being in or out of the portal 🦋 what you wish to share with others currently in the portal 🦋 what you wish you could share to someone who has passed from suicide, in honoring their story/life all experiences within the portal are welcome— whether it was a year of your life or 10, whether you know someone or dont, we welcome it all. 🕯️ email [email protected] with description “suicide diaries” to be included in our vol iii online / physical zines 🌹 also plugging the Tigers Eye Necklace that I’ve felt pulled to wear this week as I traverse the suicide portal a bit deeper. it’s protective, great for being in the portal, where sensitivities are hightend — suicide has become a spiritual experience for me. link in the bio

Glory to Gods in Drag (a Pride Collection) — June 6 2026. 🏳️‍🌈 #pride #lgbtqart #fyp #bts #translivesmatter

3 Lucky Coin Earrings #asmr featuring Mother Nature🧧 link in bio to get yours 🌹 - jewelry with a story, stainless steel, and hand made by yours truly 🎈 #asmrrelax #fyp #việtnam #asmrsound