grief did something strange to time for me.
when i lost my mom, my life kept moving, faster than ever. while on the inside i was completely frozen in time. that part of me is still trying to understand how someone can just disappear one day and be gone forever.
while writing this song i tried to capture the whole story, but i got nowhere. i ended up starting over and over again until i realized it didn’t have to be perfect or have all the answers. (i got some good help with this part)
so instead ‘zero’ ended up being more like a fragment of my healing journey, capturing a moment in time. the ending as well as a beginning of whatever comes next.
my heart goes out to everyone who lost someone close. it has made me realize so many things. one especially important thing is that it’s never too late to start over, even if you feel like you have nothing.
i miss my mom (and my bonus mom). that stupid cancer took them both. when releasing music i often think about what they would say if they had the chance to hear it. and i still hope and wonder if they somehow can.
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@ole.onstad
thank u ole for running around the graveyard with me, capturing my feelings. sometimes the weirdest things feel right. #grief
