Why do I do this? Why do I want to do this? Does this make up for the hurt I’ve done?
I think it’s important I answer these questions and give an introduction.
Where do I start…. I was in a very dark place, it was hard to remember where it started. Defining where it changed is much easier. Where it ends is something I don’t need knowledge on.
Where I decided to make change is important. I realized I was constantly trying to entertain myself. Through every situation. Constant stimulation. I needed music on 🎧I needed to watch a tv 📺, I needed to have a drink 🥃, hit a vape 💨, sometimes even just be upset, just to feel content. Over time I used my anger to control situations, ask me how that worked 😁.
I lived my life through having expectations but never voicing them, by the time I would, resentment is already built, what could have been a conversation is now an argument, a blow up, a scar on that relationship. I would assume what people SHOULD do. How would I know what someone should be doing? I didn’t know what they had going on outside of what I wanted them to have going on.
In these efforts I always remained caring and wanting the best. The problem was I was people pleasing. Never doing what I wanted or voicing my opinion in fear of upsetting others. Now here’s where that resentment built because I thought people SHOULD see what I was doing, thus they SHOULD be looking to do things back for me. Sounds Sweet 🍭! It’s horribly bitter. This mindset is corrupting and is very common for those “People Pleasing.”
Where I sought change. I realized all these tendencies were damaging. I recognized that I was fostering the frustration with others. I caused myself to be upset, angry, feeling unrespected because I constantly pushed my wants and needs to the side.
So in order to be a better Dad, partner, brother, son, and soon to be uncle ❤️, I had to recognize If I wanted to feel respected, I had to respect myself.
My Goal: Positively impact everyone I encounter daily and be a stepping stone for others to feel comfortable in helping themselves.
Unconditional love is what we need to strive for in our lives for everyone.
Take one day at a time, don’t even look at these other days. Each day will become less of a performance. These actions will bring out your true self.
Hear me now, understand me later.
#7day #challenge #mental #growth #mentalgains
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Take this day by day, questions, reach out.
Good luck, you have everything you need within you to succeed.
#women #girlpower #humanity #challenge #mental
Last night, we lost a piece of our family.
Adam, Brandon, Emilie, Tyler, also Mikayla, Ava, Jaelyn, Tyler… I know we’re all feeling this in our own way today. Mom and Dad’s house will feel quieter, a little emptier, and it’s the kind of silence that reminds you how much love was there.
To my mom and dad… thank you for giving her a life full of love. You gave us all something so special through her.
Grief is a strange thing. It comes in waves—sometimes it’s heavy, sometimes it’s quiet… but it’s always there because the love was real.
She wasn’t “just a dog.”
She was part of us. Part of our memories, our routines, our childhood, our home.
And even though this hurts, I keep reminding myself…
we were lucky enough to love her for all those years.
If today feels heavy, that’s okay.
We don’t have to rush through it.
We just have to feel it… together.
Love you guys 🤍
#grief #love #wehaveeachother #jazz #stinkyjazz
Fear isn’t stopping you… it’s protecting the old version of you.
The question is—who are you choosing to become?
DM me “READY” if you’re done living small.
#selfgrowth #mindsetshift #fearlessliving #personaldevelopment #growthmindset
Happy Mother’s Day!!! ❤️❤️ Stay with me here
@jaelynrehberg thank you so much for all you do. Your determination for providing for us is so unique. A lot of what you do goes unnoticed. For that I’m sorry. You’re an amazing woman and an amazing partner, mother, daughter, and friend. You bring light into every room. I love you so much beautiful, have an amazing day!! #mothersdayspecial #love #mommy #kids
Self-love isn’t just soft and pretty. It’s losing people you thought were forever and trusting that the quiet is making room for better connections
#selflove #connection #innerpeace #quiet #trust
