WHAT WE COMPLAIN ABOUT NOW ARE WHAT WE WILL MISS ONE DAY ๐ค๐ฑ๐
been practicing mindfulness and the power of now. the strength of gratitude and how we donโt have tomorrow forever. so many times in my life, i responded with arrogance, ego, pride because of how stubborn i was to the projected images i had of myself within my mind until life stripped me of those meanings
i continue to strive for imperfect perfection , smiling more. to remind myself how meaningful it is to taste a strawberry, smell the fresh scent of lavender, to have the lessons. truly thankful for the love, support, and grace from the universe during the times where i โthoughtโ i knew.
simply doing my best to..
PHOTOGRAPHED BY @deelightsoul / @soulvintagecollection
DEV&SCAN : @lafilmlab
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IF I KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW ID BE MUCH FURTHER
the past and future often make me stumble a bit until i realize the power of now. the amount days i struggle with gratitude to remind myself there are over ten million people in the world right now who would trade their problems for mines . i remember that my bloodline fought for someone like me to wake up..
i remember overthinking this shoot because i hadnโt got my haircut or i wasnโt feeling the best until i realized the kid me needed this that day. i struggle with being perfect until i return to the fact im doing my best . took this myself unsure of how theyโd come out
6X6 SELF PORTRAITS
KODAK GOLD 200 | @kodak
DEV & SCAN | @lafilmlab
LIGHTING | @neewer
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TELL ME WHEN YOU THINK OF ME ๐
๐ฌ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐พ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ : ๐น๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
#MadeWithKodak
THAT NONCHALANT LIFESTYLE GONE BE THE REASON WE LOSE OUT ON TIMELESS MEMORIES IN LIFE
PHOTOGRAPHED BY @kwstixn | @madeinla.gallery
HAIR BY @loctherapyy
๐ฌ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐พ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ : ๐น๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐
BEHIND EVERY ORIGINAL IS A STORY OF LOVE ๐
Leviโsยฎ x Kodak
@levis
๐๏ธ: @kodak #ektar100 #portra800 #portra400
๐ธ: @rae.woods.x.o.x.o
๐ชฎ: @loctherapyy
DEV & SCAN : @lafilmlab
SELF PORTRAITS
#MadeWithKodak #fyp
negril, jamaica ๐ฏ๐ฒ captured on ๐๏ธ
two yrs after my father transitioned into a new life form
these photos were taken during a time period where everything around me felt uncertain
i wasnโt sure i was going to have the necessary strength to get through a wall of darkness embedded in grief
my heart, mind, body, soul, faith were being tested in ways i couldnโt possibly imagine / bonds that leave without saying make life taste incomplete
chakras were imprisoned and my vision felt limited.
never knew i could feel such immense sadness
we live life thinking we have forever to hold, kiss, cherish, love those around us but the truth is we donโt
we donโt know how many moments are left until that door closes
i had enough courage to ask my mother for some of my fathers ashes so that he could touch some peace , so that he could finally reach his motherland
we go through so much on the block growing up just to somehow make it beyond the 4 walls we grew up in
i felt honored to lead him through this journey as he led me so much in life
appreciative of loved ones at the time for allowing me to see jamaica ๐ฏ๐ฒ frm a non tourist perspective. fun fact, i actually landed in kingston instead of negril which was exactly 6hrs away / they had to come get me past curfew hours / which i didnโt know
itโs interesting even with my sacred locs people still knew i was a tourist easily. the water was clear blue, sand was exfoliating my pores, natural coconut ๐ฅฅ off the tree, ackee was so good, red stripe hitting hard, the immense weed in the natural air, humidity thick as a bull, with so many vibrant colors
i never in my life saw so many black people outside at once living amongst as one - inspiring to see that possibility
capitalism teaches us to be money hungry , seeking material instead of intentionally giving. energy was one of the biggest differences i felt
love in amerikkka is so aesthetic based while in jamrock, people understand the power of less being more .
motherlands are sacred / go visit them
#kodakfilm #filmisnotdead
damn, where do i start /
i had to really admit out loud that im my biggest problem in life thus far.
the deep resistance i have towards accepting the love that the universe wants to offer. is it because of how silently i abuse myself?
ive gotten so used to talking to myself very poorly. considering myself a burden to others created a mental frequency that attracted people, places, things that reflected how i felt about myself. thinking im not good enough?
noticing that these habits are apart of mental health issues..?
my ancestors didnโt transition for me to stay this way . why continue to let my bloodline down with these habits? to do our best with what we only knew to outgrew what we once thought we knew
noticing what i fear became my reality around me. fear of abandonment, poverty, sickness, pain, anxiety, losing someone? losing myself ? many things
noting that the universe will respond like a mirror with the energy i send out - a call signal like a bat symbol around gotham city.
since im marketing negativity within my mind silently, treating myself poorly, the universe will continue to match that for me - like a nice dime sack yknow
what i think, repeat, say, believe will become my perceived reality? interesting how these same habits have been passed down generationally right? i think i feel trapped -
thereโs high blood pressure, diabetes , cancer genetics passed down- welp, mental imprisonment does too
mental health is wealth right?
since trust fund babies exist, im quite sure trauma bond babies exist too
damn, where do i start?
hm.
MATURING MEANT REALIZING I WASNT A MAN IN MANY PARTS OF MY LIFE
ONLY TIME AND EXPERIENCE COULDVE TAUGHT ME THAT
PHOTOGRAPHED BY GULIE ROSE | @gulie_rose
PROCLUB T | @proclub_usa
