uhhhh i got too in my head about these and then never posted ! from 3 years ago,,
karina’s wedding ! with the whole team !! in chiang mai !!
(full disclosure 5th pic not mine ah)
one night & one night only!
all these people here just to say goodbye; crowded rooftop over a crowded party; balancing precariously on yellow railings; our situations will bury us; abba might save us; your name - graffitied on a wall, unexpected, like a love note just for me; nights are so pretty here !
some night in new york four years ago that i almost forgot about
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stumbled across these pictures looking for something else and uncovered that :: somewhere in my mind it is still the fall of 2019. i am still in new york, staying in a 5th floor apartment on 14th street with some of my closest college friends.
half of us just got back from thanksgiving :: rachel’s just rooms away with a fresh arm tattoo she had just gotten done. and i’m trying to find some way to finish up a roll of film that i had brought with me upstate over the break. the idea of getting dessert gets floated and we’re off on another night walk.
we did this a lot!! we’d wander around the east village, get some variation of an iced dessert or bubble tea, even if it was cold out, and just walk and talk and wander.
this night:: we ended up hitting a grocery store, tried some new chinese dessert/ froyo place on 1st ave, and stumbled across a tree that was just ,, carrying an entire christmas store worth of fairy lights on its branches.
we walk and talk till we decide to go home & i develop this roll the next day (probably). i overlook these pictures entirely because it was just ! another night ! and i had better pictures i was more excited about, and these !! were just !! meant to be !! filler pictures !!!
i say all of this but ngl! i barely remember the night (outside of what i took pics of) but i knew it then like i know it now, no matter,,, how subliminally,,, that i’d miss it all one day. (and it really feels like it’s bEen that day. i’ve been stuck on these photos for the past weEK)
four years later and i’m revisiting these photos with mAd bittersweet nostalgia and i’m trying to remember what we talked about but all the details escape me. every seemingly-normal-then late night walk around town // nyc dessert run has melded into one big nostalgic memory in my head !!
anyway , all this to say :: i miss it ! i miss what normal meant to me 4 years ago. i miss the normal i shared with people who are now,, thousands of miles away from me,,,
anyway roberts,, if you’re reading this all the way through,, call soon. please ! i love you and miss you. so much,, always !!
these pics capture a bit of a turning point for me & im glad they came back looking the way they do ,, trying to creep my way back into taking more photos !! just been a lil bit of a learning curve of a year + learning curve x2 in terms of also trying to manoeuvre a new point and shoot ! all in all,,, exciting times and i’m excited for what else is yet to come
am back from the dead !! it’s been so long since i’ve been excited by pictures i’ve taken !! and ugh,, feels so good to **reconnect** with this part of myself again 🥹
