I gotta say: 2025 was an absolutely wild ride. It actually featured some mind-blowing wins, in spite of me spending most of the year in a dark and self absorbed bullshit frame of mind… Honestly, my main goal for the year ahead is to get back to an awareness - and acknowledgement - that life has been extraordinarily generous with me, and I should make the most of that as much as I possibly can…*if* I can figure out what that looks like. 😅
It’s a strange thing
To finally come to a place in life…
When you *finally* prefer
your own company over
Anyone else’s…
…There is certainty an
after-taste
of bitter-sweet
in such a transformation.
…But then I’ve probably always been like this.
There’s a lot of weird shit going on in the world these days. Media was hard to trust even before AI. Not sure if too afraid or not afraid enough…
You will often hear people say that liars are good at telling you what you want to hear…but I think it’s wise to put a finer point on it and say that liars are good at telling you what they know you will believe.
So? Question what you believe I guess: Vigorously. And often.
The Dialectics of Life
What goes up must come down
Otherwise known as Yin Yang
Also known as the Wheel of Fortune
Also known as Fate
Also known as Karma
Sometimes known as BPD
Every boon
Requires sacrifice
Every high
Risks a low
Every light
Creates blind darkness
…At least until your perception
…adjusts…
I don’t really mind
Losing an old car
Tied to an old life
If it comes with the good news
of You.
Am I Loved????
I am loved in ways
most people never
allow themselves to be.
I am loved in ways
they don’t speak of
at funerals.
I am loved in ways
that pets wish they could express
in human words…
I am loved by folks
who don’t get enough credit
…for…
Anything
I am loved by souls
Who know
They will never love me
How I love them.
The truth is / Humans like me need / an interventionist. / We’re too optimistic (to survive) / to ever admit we’re drowning…
…Now read that again, / but with a big pause / before the part in brackets, / and see if that / changes things…
We, this anomalous species,
Do our best to keep us all
On the middle path…
Keeping it cool,
And riding the sturdies wave
Towards the calmest waters
But it will never work,
For we are chaos in a bell jar
That’s always on the verge of shatter.
The Dragon closes their eyes
As she lingers on the question;
“Will I ever hear from him again?”
“Of course not, child.
You have almost learned the lesson…”
And then a small but forceful voice from within her,
whispers in her ear;
“There’s no sense in pouring yourself
Into a cup that already overflows.”
