📔chapter 23: I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT !!!!😭
the biggest chapter yet
holy sh*t balls
Idk what to say really
I’m nervous
I’m excited
I’m hopeful
I’m shocked
I’m sitting in Central Park right now watching life unfold in-front of my eyes and all my body wants to do is roll down the hill that’s in front of me
(If u see me do that pls video it lmao)
and if you still haven’t watched the whole video…
I’M WRITING A BOOK
with @penguinukbooks 🐧!!
@penguinbooks is wanting ME to write a book
A REAL BOOK
THAT WILL BE ON A BOOK SHELF
IN THE WINDOWS
IN BOOK STORES
(I don’t even read ffs)
I need some time to process this lol
Ok love you so much ❤️
Let’s go write this book !!!!
(Oh and I have 3 months to write it LOL)
lolololol the nyc update you all wanted - you might think the end is a bit dramatic from me considering it’s pretty much a stranger but there’s a lot I haven’t felt comfortable including so I hope u get that!! But this is the update…get ready for part 2 because there’s a WHOLE lot more to say about this
NYC I love you so much and NOTHING will change that for me. My life continues and so does this long lived story of mine🙂↕️📘
Ok so where shall I go next lol I’m being serious 🗺️
Walking away from things, places, people, projects, anything really that I’ve given my time and energy to is like the hardest thing ever
I think I ‘close the door’ and ‘lock it’ but I still have that key to open it back up again. Like I still give myself permission to hold on because “what if” this time is different or “what if” they’ve changed or “what if” I’m being silly or “what if” i’ll regret it??
I heard this sound and thought ah, sh*t :) I related until she said “throw away the key” and then I didn’t. lol
I rarely throw the key away because if I throw the key away then I’m letting go forever?? Hellooo that is bloody prettifying ??
I’m lowkey speaking in code rn but this kind of applies to so many things and moments in my life now and in the past.
So basically I have to throw away the key and remove my own access back in because that is why I feel stuck and stagnant like I do rn. Just gotta surrender to the chance that i may never get another explanation, version or opportunity to revisit it AND THAT IS OK.
As soon as i take away the option to reopen the door every time i feel lonely, nostalgic, guilty, bored, curious, hopeful, sentimental, hormonal, or sleep deprived, peace and happiness and progress will happen
So interpret this how you will!! Walk away from anything that isn’t serving you anymore, throw away any opportunity for you to go back and move forward
and I’ll do the same !!!!! Promise
life is oh so sweet when I remember to realise these things
between me and u, I’m selfishly creating this post for myself because I forgot and I needed to realise it all again xxx
so I’m swiping away with you
Love u xxxxx
wtf living my Hannah Montana dream!!?🎙️20 chapters, over 50,000 words, 14 hours, 1 book, written in 3 months, and available on 25th June!
What a bloody moment honestly wow. Although I got sick of my voice by the end of it lol I can’t quite believe the words, sentences, realisations, contradictions and epiphanies I’ve written
WOW
u can preorder now as well which means
- guaranteed lowest price (!!)
- money doesn’t come out until release day
- you’ll be the first to get a copy
- helps me to show penguin that you guys want it🫂
Link in my bio
I hate self promo so much lol but really so bloody proud of this so I’m gonna scream about it until my lungs explodeeee!!
📔chapter 35: my slow replies are making me a bad friend
how did it get to this point lol
I’ll go weeks not replying to people
I’ll rarely make plans and if I do it’s always last minute
I’m forgetful
Ok there’s a lot of things I’m listing that doesn’t make me sound great
And after writing about it in my book (coming out next month, 25th June wtaf) it’s made me so aware
Which is good I guess
but it’s making me feel stuck because there’s certain parts of this ‘friendship criteria’ that I can’t meet because it doesn’t come naturally to me.
Like showing up and replying consistently
But then there’s other parts of this so called friendship criteria that I really do meet
like I’ll go above and beyond
Soooo am I bad friend, am I just low maintenance or am I neither and it’s more about types of friendship and values
Idk
So that’s why I’m writing about it
I’ll come back on this one xx
This post is dedicated to the 6ft giant SULT sachet, without you, we wouldn’t have had a plan for London marathon, we wouldn’t have been able to hydrate all the supporters and we wouldn’t have made it on BBC live news. This one’s for you 💚
(In all seriousness, well done to EVERYONE today!! The runners, the supporters, the staff, the whole of london and more!! Such a fun day. Rest up and make sure you take some SULT🤝)
sorry I can’t waste £350 so ur having them whether I like them or not :) xx
cba being a girl sometimes u know
feel like this dress deserved BIGGER AND BETTER but whatever that’s me being hard on myself so I’m posting what I got anyway ly and loved the movie!!
thank u @20thcenturyuk@tdwp2 for having me in Milan⭐️
Wish I could always remember this whenever I feel guilty or feel like I’ve failed in anyway. It comes down to what you’re asking yourself you know
Like…actually you know what, I didn’t lose any friend, I just completed that friendship and that’s amazing
I didn’t fail at that job, I just paid for what I know now
I haven’t changed the way they might think I have, I’ve just built boundaries and become more honest #recoveringpeoplepleaser
I haven’t ruined it, I’ve just stopped forcing it
Perspective is everything!!!
Anddd so is this weather and spring and this new outfit xxxx it’s put me in a good mood (all from @hm spring collection drop 2) ad
I lived my childhood dream, i went to coachella, I saw JB, I ate fried chicken, I saw sunsets, I saw sunrises, I rolly pollied down some hills, I forgot about work, I danced in front of Niall Horan, I made friends, I frolicked around fields, I wore cute outfits, I went to pool parties, after parties, all sorts of parties and gave out a load of SULT. Ok, i get it x it’s worth the hype ugh
📔Chapter 34: I’ve never been this spontaneous in my life
I fully manifested this ……???
once you read the first chapter of my book ‘Things I Told My Notes App’, you’ll understand what I mean lol
THIS IS CRAZY!!!
On the flight now as I’m posting this and I feel as excited as I used to feel on Christmas Eve
Is it too late now to say sorry (but also not sorry) (pardon the pun) for what you’re about to see from me this weekend
Let’s bloody go live little Milly’s dreams !!🧚🏼♂️🌴🫦💅🏼
