Feels so good to be able to dance again after years of not being able to because of my hip reconstruction. Itās been a slow process back, getting my hip as mobile as possible but itās so worth it. Thereās not much else that brings me so much happiness. Thanks to @heybenallen , @groov3_hiro for such a fun dance workshop.
Iām 43 now and spent the last week celebrating thanks to so many amazing people in my life. Beautiful dinner organized by so many wonderful dance friends, my love surprised me with front row seats and a meet & greet with my fav - Mo Amer, and a Healdsburg getaway for a few days with two of my lifers. I have a good feeling about 43.
A month ago this evening we lost our perfect sweet angel girl Nugget. In the span of 48 hours she went from playing with her brother to her heart just not being able to hold on any longer. She had just turned 5 a few weeks earlier. We got her knowing that our time with her was limited, being born with 4 heart conditions... but I wasnāt ready. There hasnāt been a day that I havenāt cried. Most days I canāt help but sob. I know everyday will get easier, but she was just so fucking special. Itās so unfair that we got so little time with her. It all feels so surreal. I canāt believe Iāve lived a month without her already.
She was my heart.
Mogwhai I had for almost 18 years and he taught me patience and selflessness. In the short time I had with my girl, she opened my heart and taught me love in a way that Iāve never felt. But I know sheās still with me. Hawks, butterflies and hummingbirds have been following me everywhere I go - letting me know sheās watching over me, that sheās okay and that I will be too.
Today was my first powwow since my mom died a year and a half ago. I didnāt expect it to hit me the way it did, but I kept finding myself in tears - listening to the female elders and what they had to share, seeing the handmade leatherwork, breathing in the sage. It all reminded me of her.
I think, subconsciously, I havenāt gone back until now for that very reason.
But it was a beautiful powwow. A beautiful day. And Iām so glad I went - especially because I got to experience it with my favorite person, who held me tight, looked into my eyes, and saw the tears without needing me to say a word.
Our gorgeous, perfect little girl has turned five! This is a big dealā¦ she was born with heart disease, which then caused her to also develop kidney disease and dogs like her typically only live to be about three years old. In the words of her vet, āNugget is defying science.ā Weāre so grateful for this sweet little angel. Sheās the funnest, silliest, sweetest best little thing ever. And after losing my Mogwhai, she really helped heal my heart. So incredibly grateful that sheās doing well today after so many ups and downs over the years. Sheās a fighter if nothing else. Probably why we connect so hard. ā¤ļø Love this little girl so much.
Thank you @voyagelamag for the write-up on Wholesome Bakeryās launch into Southern California. Weāre incredibly proud to see our products on shelves in these wonderful stores, and this is just the beginning! Grateful to all our supporters who are helping us grow!!
