9월 한 달 동안 플레이스막 방콕 레지던시에는 배성미 작가가 머물렀다. 어느새 중견작가가 되어버린 그녀는 아직도 여전히 작업의 무게를 감당하기 어려워하는 예술가로 살아가야 하는 데에 큰 염증을 느꼈다. 그녀는 아무도 없는 레지던시 건물에 체류하면서 느낀 고요와 고독에 매료되었다고 한다. 대화를 나눌 수 없는 사람들 사이에서 그녀는 절대적인 존재였다. 레지던시가 끝날 무렵 그녀는 예술을 하면서 짊어지는 수많은 질문에 고통받는 대신 예술을 하고 있는 존재로서 자신과 모든 상황에 순응하기로 했다는 말을 전했다. 마음이 편해지는 그녀와의 대화에서 나 또한 내가 의심하는 것들을 조금씩 기화시키는 방법을 생각해 보게 되었다.
During the month of September, Bae Sungmi was in residence at PLACEMAK BKK. Bae, now a mid-career artist, was still struggling to cope with the weight of her work. She was mesmerized by the silence and solitude she felt while staying in the residency building, where no one was around. She was an absolute presence among people who couldn't talk to her. At the end of the residency, she told me that instead of being tormented by the many questions that come with making art, she decided to accept herself and the situation as a being making art. Her reassuring conversation made me think about how I too can vaporize my doubts little by little.
ในช่วงเดือนกันยายน แบซองมีอาศัยอยู่ที่ PLACEMAK BKK แม้ว่าเธอจะกลายเป็นศิลปินระดับกลางไปแล้ว แต่เธอก็รู้สึกเหนื่อยมากที่ต้องใช้ชีวิตในฐานะศิลปินที่ยังพบว่าเป็นเรื่องยากที่จะแบกรับภาระงานของเธอ เธอหลงใหลในความเงียบและความสันโดษที่เธอรู้สึกขณะอยู่ในอาคารพักอาศัยซึ่งไม่มีใครอยู่รอบๆ เธอปรากฏตัวท่ามกลางผู้คนที่ไม่สามารถคุยกับเธอได้ ในตอนท้ายของถิ่นที่อยู่ เธอบอกฉันว่าแทนที่จะถูกทรมานด้วยคำถามมากมายที่มาพร้อมกับการสร้างงานศิลปะ เธอตัดสินใจที่จะยอมรับตัวเองและสถานการณ์ในฐานะที่เป็นผู้สร้างงานศิลปะ การสนทนาที่ทำให้มั่นใจของเธอทำให้ฉันคิดว่าฉันจะทำให้ความสงสัยของฉันหายไปทีละน้อยได้อย่างไร
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독산역 금천예술공장 근처.
아트센터 예술의시간
전시 <off-time> 마지막날.
아침일찍 챙겨보고 작업실로 고고.
유은순큐레이터가 기획한 독특한 전시였다.
비작동시간을 활성화하는 전시로 불편한 동선과 구성이 의도되어 있었다.
예술은 본래 비효율적이고 비생산적이지 아니한가에 대한 생각을 하면서 지하철을 탔다.
