and then April struck me with grief.
nothing ever prepares you and there’s never enough time.
but my grandmother was the coolest and I’m so glad she was mine
2025: the year i had to become comfortable with goodbyes
I’ve always struggled with goodbyes. The memory of last moments physically spent with two of my closest family members before their passings stay etched into my heart, and I feel so grateful to remember those goodbyes. But somehow, I was not prepared for the adulthood goodbyes of deeply cherished friendships, environments that I once thought were meant and open for me but were actually the opposite, and a version of myself I no longer recognize. They have all been so abrupt, harsh, and for me, incredibly mentally and emotionally debilitating. However, if I have learned anything, goodbyes also create beautiful opportunities for the better.
Where that goodbye actually saves me from further hurt. Where that goodbye is able to remind me of my worth after forgetting it for so long.
Where that goodbye feels like my light isn’t being dimmed anymore.
No longer will I allow myself to be in spaces where vulnerability is punished. Where my work and effort is not acknowledged or appreciated. 2025 brought me so many of these goodbyes and while the healing of it will continue to be a journey, I am so clear in knowing all of it was meant to happen. The new experiences I have been given this year have changed my life and I am in awe of the amazing people I got to meet and spend so much time with. I can’t thank those enough who constantly talked me through my ruminating grief and have shown up in many ways that remind me that I am not too difficult to care about. Crazy premise, I know. But man, with the experiences I’ve had the last two years, it was getting hard to remember. So I look forward to 2026, the year of the fire horse! It comes with the encouragement of intentional movement, resilience and holistic wellbeing in order to protect the heart and regulate the nervous system, and with what great timing. I am looking forward to showing up for myself this year, fully and wholeheartedly, and I hope the same for you ❤️
K thanks 2025, but good riddance.
3 months straight, 3 different tours, had so many blasts! Thank you to everyone for the opportunity 🥹❤️❤️🔥
But y’all fr please tell me to never do that again :)
Immensely happy that I was able to reunite with my festival family and be reminded why I do what I do. These two weeks meant so much to me. Until next time!!! ❤️🔥❤️❤️🔥❤️🤘🏾
