The gang is getting back together! The five of us became close over Zoom during the pandy, and every time we end up in the same city, we plan a little reunion show.
Join us for an evening of songs and stories, set up Nashville-style: songwriter-in-the-round, intimate, and full of heart.
BLDG Studios (near Downtown San Diego)
Sunday, Dec 7 @ 6pm. Ticket link in bio.
Only she can hold me
With her hands on my rib cage
Crack open my breath
Locked by early unfelt grief
Her knees singing, kicking
Voice echos through ages
Voice does not exist in a vacuum
Voice in every ligament
Only she can welcome me home
From the other home, blown over
Gave me a floor to cry down flat
Sang to me, for herself,
for me, to herself
Heart freed by my own tears
Snot of embarrassment
My choice to not be shamed
Tears I won’t wipe away
Different this time
Different in the letting she gives me
She holds me with her whole-broken heart
4 years ago today I released Floating. It has such a special place in my heart and I know, because many of you have told me, that it has a special place your heart too. I’ve had people quote my own lyrics back to me when they needed it or when I needed it—“there will be blood either way, whether I show up or choose to fade.” Life is many things, but however you shake it, pain is inescapable. I’ve learned that the thing that is closest to your heart also can be the most vulnerable and painful thing to pursue. For me, that has always been music. There’s nothing I have ever wanted more than to be an uninhibited and prolific songwriter and performer. Yet I avoid pursuing it, especially publicly, because the stakes are so high, it’s so close to my heart that it feels like it’s going to kill me. But it kills me more to try to be something (anything) other than what I am.
The song is ultimately about surrender. If you’ve ever tried to float in water, you know you have to be as still as possible, relax your body, take slow breaths. I am still writing and making music, and am planning on releasing more music soon. Life is too short I guess, I’ve grown quite tired of only playing for myself.
