Woke up feeling grateful to God for 10 years on this amazing, heart wrenching yet absolutely wonderful journey! 10 years of pain, tears, joy, relief, fear, hope, impossibility, possibilities, change, depression, loneliness, feeling lost & confused yet pushing…
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Looking at the before and after pictures, one thing was consistent through all the pain…., it was the smile!
How much we hide behind smiles & laughter,smiles that hide the suicidal thoughts & attempts, the laughter that drowns everyone in the room yet “a silent cry for help saying, can you see ME?…I need you to see ME so you can help me”
The smile that covers shameful thoughts, experiences & hopelessness….is still the same smile of victory in the after pictures…The smile was ever present…. Now I have learned to look beyond people’s laughter & smiles, from my experience I av learned to look deep in the eyes/heart and hear the silent messages.
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Thinking about it, I realize I could not have done this without you all, I had started and failed so many times I know that it was your thousands of messages, comments, prayers, likes etc that kept me grounded. So many times I wanted to give up, then I will see a message of how I inspired someone & I will pick myself up again because I owe it to you, not to give up….. thank you warriors, you are all my rock! 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
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My brother Femi who never accepted my excuses, at a point I thought the dude hated me lol…. Now I wake up everyday thanking God for him. Nneka his wife, this woman who pushed me towards this journey without pressure! My nephews so loving 🙏🏾❤️
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My parents ….. when I come back to this world, I choose you again, you cried with me through the pain & depression, watched my tantrums, endured my anger & outbursts even though you did not understand it all…. You stood by me and I stood tall, thanks dad and mum.
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@lafitgyms.eb Thank you for seeing strength when I saw weakness.
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@officialowengee and
@moyoowengee my blood, my support system, from the first day I started till now, you both had my back ❤️❤️
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@auntlanda thank you for seeing past the smile.
@nanachops322017 Friday how many times I could have died if you were not here…thank you son ❤️
