Dear Logan, I’m sitting here laying in bed unable to get up because I can’t stop thinking about how long it’s been since I’ve seen you, yet how fast all of it has gone by. It’s been 5 years since I’ve seen your face, heard your voice, cracked a laugh, shared a joint, and everything in between. 5 years is a long fucking time. I’ve spent these last 5 years changing my perspective on life, and learning to be myself in the midst of missing my other half. You helped me shine. Countless times I sit on this passive plane between existence and death and I wonder if you truly have been watching. If you have, I wonder what your favorite part would be. They say you have 2 lives, and the second one starts when you realize you only have 1. The day you left I realized that I could take control of that second life. I graduated, lost over 100 lbs, traveled the world, met amazing people, and yet the one thing my mind always travels back to is you. You were, and still are the coolest person I’ve ever met in my life. Everything I ever wanted to be was you. I wish I got more time to tell you just how much you meant to me while you were here, but I’m just gonna let my actions speak for themself. I made it my life goal for people to know your name and I can say now that I have achieved that goal. Without you, the story of me would be incomplete. Your exit helped me write my wrongs, and change the course of me. I would give it all up today if it meant I could have just 2 minutes of your time again. I love you so much buddy, and I really miss when you would call me that lol. It seemed unimportant at the time but now it’s the one thing I selfishly yearn for in life. I hope to see you soon Logan. Thank you for constantly putting me in the right places to succeed, and I hope you’re enjoying the show I’m putting on for you. You will always be my big brother through this life and through eternal life. I love you bro.
I never expected to even become remotely close to what I have become, yet everyday I am still hard on who I am today. BE PROUD! Breaking out of your comfort zone deserves respect, but making the decision to crush every expectation you have for yourself deserves the world. Constant years of holding myself back, looking at others and judging myself based on who THEY were, all for it to never matter. I am me. I will forever be happy with me, and I will forever be proud of me. To some it might seem small, but to me its the one thing that has forever changed my life. If you’re down on yourself, look at where you’ve come from, and pursue where you want to be. Your mentality determines everything. If it gets hard, good. Eventually you’ll look back and remember how the simple things in life used to be a struggle. You can be your biggest motivator if you give yourself the chance. Now, I think it’s time to beat this physique ♾️
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What an amazing fucking experience to say the least. To think that I would do anything special with this life when I used to feel the way I did about myself is truly unimaginable. I am proud of myself. I can now finally gladly say that and not feel like a dickhead for saying it. I wouldn’t be here without the people that love me and god by my side even when I didn’t think or want him there. Thanks to everyone who pulled up and took time out of their day to come speak to me.
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It’s only once in a while in life you’ll come across boys you grow so close to you consider them brothers and with Tspaul Baj and Larry I really found that. And I can’t tell you how much it hurt getting that call that we lost one of them. Larry was unlike anyone I’ve ever met. I honestly can’t even type it out into words. The best way I can describe him in 2 words was human medicine. Bro was just one of those people you felt good being around. Always full of energy funny af and motivating than a mf, and he was never afraid to call you on your bullsh*t. He motivated me in life now in death. The day he passed was the day I stopped feeling invincible and felt the weight of life. For a while it was hard but eventually we all gotta pick ourselves up. And I know Larry would be calling me a bitch if I just stayed down and let life hold me there. But since his passing I feel not just me but the group as a whole has grown so much as individuals. I realized my life was so much more than the gym. Theirs really infinite possibilities out there to do whatever you want. So much lore just waiting to be created. And I wish I could create those memories with him but now I’ll be creating them knowing he’s looking down on me. Trained my ass off for this half and was able to blow away my goal of getting a sub 2hr and got 1:55min with a 8:41 second pace which I didn’t even think was close to possible for me. On one of our last phone calls we were talking about the race and how rare it was for people to run a full marathon. He never got to run the full so in the next 4 weeks I’ll be running a full in honor of him. Thank you for not just pushing me but all of us from beyond the grave. Miss you always brother 🫶🏽 #LLL
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