Today I celebrate Motherâs (Day) differently and tbh I celebrate motherâs every single day.
â¨Today I see mothers from a different place â from inside my own body, from the deepest and most powerful place there is: my womb.
Thereâs a version of motherhood we see everywhere. Soft light. Beautiful bodies. Natural instinct. Quiet strength.
And then there is the reality many women quietly live through.â¨Probably our mothers did so, too.
This past year changed my relationship to my body â and to being a woman â completely.
After giving birth and during my breastfeeding journey, I developed a rare inflammatory breast disease that left me physically and emotionally exhausted for months.
What started as ânaturallyâ feeding my baby slowly became survival mode â surgeries, wounds, pain, medication, sleeplessness, fear, grief and the feeling of losing myself.
Iâm sharing this now not because I have fully processed it, but because I know how lonely it can feel while youâre inside of it.
These images are difficult for me to look at. But they are my reality, my story, my scars and I call them my painting of motherhood.
Motherhood opened me in ways I never expected. Not only into love â but also into exhaustion, vulnerability, softness, limits, healing and the deep need to learn how to nourish and protect myself, too in order to be a good mother.
I share this because I wish more women spoke honestly about what our bodies sometimes carry in silence.
And maybe because somewhere, another woman is searching for someone who understands. In all of this, we are not alone.
I see you.
âOnly in a womb of a woman a (man) human being can breathe underwater.â
Thank you Lovis @hautnah_shooting for capturing these sensitive truths of my motherhood journey and for holding space and making it beautifully visible.
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Today is my birthday and I am just about to get to know myself all over again and redefining my identity - I feel like a newborn myself â¨đŁđą
Here is a little something about me and how I have experienced life so farâ¨
#happybirthday #newbeginnings #aboutme #rebirth
PH @arosephoto & @anna_cottis & @felixglasmeyer đŤś
FAM â¤ď¸
I donât know the words to describe this feeling, itâs so much more and so much bigger.
#family #love #youngfam #loveofmylife #motherhood #familyportraits
April đą.
A year ago you only have been three months old, two years ago, love created life â¤ď¸ I love you so. #happymum #happytohaveyou #baby #family #aprilmood
Flamingos - lose their pink color while feeding their chicks (because they use up their pink pigments to produce nutrient-rich crop milk).
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This is me, coming slowly back to color.
#bigmood #march #nyc
Birth, postpartum and the very first year as a mum, partner and as a family.
I am so proud of us, of you and of myself.
What I have learned so far:
To heal and to give at the same time, connection, self regulation, rhythm and routines, day and night, nourishing on all levels, to exist without sleep to the first night sleeping trough, to learn whatâs most important overall, to come back to the present and feel the power of now, grounding, set boundaries, communication in the wildest moments ..( I could continue forever)..
and to become soft and most powerful within.
There has never been a time in my life more challenging and rewarding at the same time than this year. And thatâs why I not only celebrate our angel I also celebrate us as a family, you as a father and me as the mother.
You - our little angel, seeing you standing on the beach all by yourself on your feetâs that used to be so tiny in my womb, your skin becoming soft in the water like you have just been born, to see your smile, hear your jiggles, watching how you spreading your light into this world already and to feel the power you carry within you makes me go awwwww every day, hour, minute and second since you entered our life.
Happy first birthday my loveâ¤ď¸
Happy first year of parenting, fatherhood, motherhood and family.
I LOVE YOU.
