“myths are public dreams, dreams are private myths”
i have to say goodbye to my room again and that’s hard. the reason my room was so decked out back in the day is because my therapist said i needed a sanctuary. so i spent years filling it with everything i liked; glass bottles from the junk store and Arizona cans. objectively, i don’t have any good memories from in there. when i close my eyes i see me and my old friends laughing, but i mostly see myself alone. praying and begging and dying over and over. despite that, its my sanctuary. to this day that room that doesn’t exist anymore feels like the only thing that’s mine. people barely came in. i want you to know i get it. and i get that it comes in waves. i know that the numbing silence combined with the loud loud thoughts comes back. but i can tell you
you can feel better than that.
even now, when i really feel like nothing matters, i know that i feel better than i used to. i feel better than that 16 year old. and i thank a lot of you for that. and i thank you all for coming. and i love you, no matter what.
thank you always
@gooseplacebo on guitar and synth
@bencuomo on saxophone and synth
@tylerthebettercreator on guitar
@maevepalma on bass and best friend duty while i tortured myself with this project i love you
follow my music account because you love me and so i can upset you with songs like these @juno.machine
like an old joke between old friends
i am struck by your remembrance
and i whisper you letters i wrote
in the time between hell and center
are you proud of me sweetie
they are well written
hang them on your fridge
with a golden sticker
everyone’s good now
everyday ain’t a blessing
you know what i was like
a teething little terror
you know i miss you tender toothache
i miss you there with every bite i take
you know miss you i dont have to say
you know im here because
i won’t scream at you
i will beg at your feet
you’re my city
speaking all my words back to me
you’re my little exit sign
burned deep into my retinas
you’re the only thing i see when i am sleeping with anyone
let’s take our rocket ship
it just won’t last
when i’m old then i can hate the way
i let you win my past
i was wet glitter glitter
always getting stuck onto your glare
you hate the way you laughed when you would see that it was there
glitter glitter all of me
you held me down and you strip cleaned
like a feral dog
i just thought
you would surrender
to my pet
i didn’t know those things bit
but let me tell you im forever terrified
because you’re the only one
that lets me drink before 5
and i wanna drink all the time
i won’t scream at you
i will beg at your feet
you’re my city
speaking all my words back to me
you’re my little exit sign
burned deep into my retinas
you’re the only thing i see when i am sleeping with anyone
and im glitter
im wet glitter
and im on your cheek
i know you see me
you keep my there
and you smile when i am everywhere
i don’t want time or revenge
i don’t want to tell any of my friends
they don’t know me
they only know me stripped clean
like an old friend
i will just love you nevertheless
you know i miss you little toothache
i hold out on every other bite i take
WHOS WHO?? come to a beautiful night of beautiful music at @coffee_socialwp to find outttt!
@brigidhart@littlemeadowband
$5 at the door or $8 for entry AND a free drink :D
so exciting
SHOW NEXT WEDNESDAY☆!
playing a whole bunch a newbies you must come
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@cowtools.band@cosmic_joe_music
caissons
and i
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