Spent the holidays in Alberta for the first time and shared some special moments with some special people:) Shout out to @_sbrandt Wild seeing you here haha
Went on a lovely camping trip for the first time ever this late into fall (early October) but had the most lovely time soaking in the Autumn views that nature has to bring at this time of year. So many lovely childhood memories attached to the Georgian bay and needless to say I always get in the water when I visit. We enjoyed the outdoors rain and shine, explored and soaked in all the elements of nature while sleeping in tents, had hiking adventures and fun campfire stories. I can’t wait to go back!
Halloween spookiness with eerie ghost stories and festivities with some of my favourite creatures✨🎱🎃🦇
Costume 1: Witch (so just me)
Costume 2: Black Cat 🐈⬛
Costume 3: Milo & Kida from Atlantis 💙
A lot of change. A lot of new. And a lot of love in the last month or so❤️
My birthday happened 🎂
A lot of my loved ones birthdays also happened
I found a new hand to hold 💖
I spent time with my family
I discovered new music 🎶
I saw Remi Wolf in concert with friends
I cried to “What Went Down” by Foals
I played pool 🎱
I went to Ireland and got to sit in the cockpit of an airplane for the first time
I ate good food
I met new people
I danced and sang with my friends
Learning tarot for the first time ✨
I cut my hair short for the first time ever
I finally watched Star Wars (Thanks Wyatt for the media education)
I enjoyed nature and sound of birds 🦅
May, you are the month of when I came and started this movie of mine. Till we meet again next year and start the next season of 23.
Last year I had the privilege to work with the amazing Stephanie Brandt on a cabaret performance based on exploration of identity, revolving around how woman can choose to express themselves through their own lenses and highlighting the agency of choice. We both read a spoken word poem called “How Lovely” that I had wrote right before this moment of singing Maybe This Time from Cabaret. So here it is below:
Is it Really Lovely?
Why is it always, Lovely?
Is it Lovely when you lie to me,
Is it Lovely when I cry?
When I am shamed and abused,
Have you ever thought to think in my shoes?
When I have changed for you,
Why won’t you change for me?
An endless cycle…
When will I be free?
I stare through her eyes,
There is so much she needs to hide.
She is beautiful, but shy
With more colours deep inside.
It’s His brown eyes,
That keep thinking she’s the prize.
Is there even a place we could hide in a different Disguise.
You tear away the things that make her easy to Love.
You manipulate every part, right through her Heart.
And suddenly… it’s gone.
You’re all gone.
Left alone with the thorns
And the wounds of each sword.
Thinking.
That Maybe this will be the last time.
Maybe you will learn.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe…
Life has offered me ups and downs, turns, flips and tricks all to create one big circus display. However, in that chaos, a sense of serenity can be found. A sense of quiet, eerie peace and a stillness in the wind.
I’ve learned to breathe all over again, take it slow with one foot in front of the other and reignite a creativity I buried deep into my subconscious mind. I’m not sure I can thank the events that got me to where I am, but what I do know is I’ve learned to grow through them.
Mind, body and soul, healing as one, breathing as one, creating as one and most importantly living as one. That’s real inner and outer beauty. Here’s to life’s mysteries✨🪬🎬♠️
As I walk through the sand leaving the traces of what once was behind… the further my troubles seemed to be. Italia you are my safe haven. Till we meet again…
