.
I will write shitty poems
while I look for a job
that I won't fully care
and I'll do a lousy work
I will spit in the air
and scream at my walls
about conditions
that are not really that bad
but I'm lazy and mediocre
I'd prefer to lay on a couch
chill with my friends
smoking joints on a porch
while gossiping about a girl
who won't write me back
I tried to be relatable
I was such a tryhard
watch movies all night
to forget all my fuck ups
there is joy in ignoring
what's hard to come by
and sleep when I want
cause I'm fatigued all the time
it might be that I'm lazy
or the diagnosis that I carry around
I grew as a person
around emotional distress
so I became really good
at talking about feelings and shit
but I wish I was more productive
so I could fit in
between the working class
and the ones left on the streets
because right now I'm just an asshole
who only knows about being depressed
and in physical pain
