I love being her mom. It’s the most important title I’ve ever had the opportunity to wear, and it has exceeded every expectation I had.
This journey has taken me from fear to the most aligned and attuned version of myself. Along the way, I lost parts of who I was, only to sit with who I am becoming. I’ve been healing, clearing, letting go, and creating space for this new version of me to land and expand. And honestly, it’s taken until now ~18 months in to really feel like I’ve arrived back in my body with a new perspective, deeper love, completed healing, and still more to explore.
Motherhood is so much more than the lack of sleep, breastfeeding, learning how to do things with one hand, having several threads of conversations at one time but never finishing any of them, bath time rituals and an abundance of love. It’s one of the biggest transformations we can go through- an expansion of self in all the ways. If you pay attention, it asks you to heal, clarify, soften, and grow in ways I never expected.
Challenging me to not return back to who I was, but into who I am becoming. For me, this transformation has been wild, humbling, and beautiful and some way more natural than I had anticipated and in others I’ve had to do the work. Sometimes I’ve surprised myself with the mother I am and commit to being every day for this little bright light.
To all the mothers and aspiring mothers - I honor you in this massive transformation, wherever you are in it. And wish you a beautiful journey on your way to an expanded version of yourself.
To
@strombelline thank you for loving us so deeply through this evolution. You are my rock.
To my village, because it really takes one . Thank you for being there physically and emotionally, for listening and for being such an inspiration to Nez.
And to my momma
@loribabes I’ve loved watching you become Lala. It means everything for Nez to have this relationship she does with you.
xx