“i get so lost
in where i want to go
i forget that the place i’m in
is already quite magical”.
Crater Lake & Mt. Thielsen
Giiwas & Hisc’akwaleeas, ancestral lands of the Klamath Tribes.
7.27 - 7.29
A belated Mother’s Day post, and my heart is exploding with love. Also! Welcome to the world Finn, I already know how wonderful your mom and grandma are. I cannot wait for you to find out too🩵
My mom and sister have shaped my world.
My sister is both my best friend and unconditional support. She understands me in ways that words cannot. Our shared and often spontaneous adventures are so full of laughter. Many of my most favorite moments have been with you and have shaped who I am today. In the times we are apart, I’ll call you first for advice, and you remind me I’m never alone. I am so proud of the mom you already are and I am so lucky to be your sister. I cannot wait for the day Finn calls me his favorite aunt ☀️
My mom continues to give me the courage to live beyond the boundaries of expectation, and I am so happy I have. She has shown me what strength and kindness truly looks like. At every moment in my life, I know it’s her wind beneath my wings.
These women are badass, and they are both amazing moms. I am so thankful for both of you in my life 🧡
2024
“Life is amazing And then it’s awful.
And then it’s amazing again.
And in between the amazing and the awful it’s ordinary and mundane and routine.
Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful,
and relax and exhale during the ordinary.
That’s just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life.
And it’s breathtakingly beautiful.”
Squamish, BC
‘“What day is it? Asked Pooh.
“It’s today.” Squeaked Piglet.
“My favorite day”. Said Pooh.’
Safely Meeting Time: My intentions for tomorrow are to wake up, eat pancakes, and spend more time like this with y’all soon 🧡
Late June, 2023
Oregon Coast, Cougar Falls, & Places in between.
“Oh do you have time
to linger
for just a little while
out of your busy
and very important day
for the goldfinches
that have gathered
in a field of thistles
for a musical battle,
to see who can sing
the highest note,
or the lowest,
or the most expressive of mirth,
or the most tender?
Their strong, blunt beaks
drink the air
as they strive
melodiously
not for your sake
and not for mine
and not for the sake of winning
but for sheer delight and gratitude –
believe us, they say,
it is a serious thing
just to be alive
on this fresh morning
in the broken world.
I beg of you,
do not walk by
without pausing
to attend to this
rather ridiculous performance.
It could mean something.
It could mean everything.
It could be what Rilke meant, when he wrote:
You must change your life.”
Mary Oliver “Invitation”
Chem Trails, Smith Rock Oregon: mid May 2022
“Life is amazing.
And then it's awful.
And then it's amazing again.
And in between the amazing and the awful it's ordinary and mundane and routine.
Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful,
and relax and exhale during the ordinary.
That's just living heartbreaking, soul healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life.
And it's breathtakingly beautiful.”
Road Trip with My Mom: Joshua Tree, CA - Bend, OR.
3 dogs, 2 humans, 1 Astro Van.
March 22nd - March 26th: 2023.
I am the luckiest human because I was raised by this woman. You are more than I could have ever needed, thank you for the wings to fly.
I said Goodbye to Goofy.
Goofy was “old” since the moment I got him. But he never got “old”. He gave me shin spilts two weeks before he died because he wanted to run and I wasn’t prepared. He is a superhero.
Goofy was different. I miss everything about him and I miss the way he looked at me. Those of us who are fortunate enough to love a retired sled dog are lucky.
One hundred times over, I would do everything again for him.
Grief is like an ocean. A peaceful mountain top, a breathless sprint, and a slow wander. The waves are powered by a hurricane and a calm breeze in the sunshine.
There will be sunsets, overwhelming joy, and beauty to come. What I will remember is our shared joy. I’ll have to keep choosing that because he would want to come along too. We together have a thousand places we have been and it cannot end there.
I didn’t go on a walk this morning again, but I will for him.
The world is big, full of wonder, and terrible things. I am so grateful we got to walk it together while we could. I’ll wait for you at the rainbow bridge, and if you’re blissfully sleeping in the sunshine on a soft surface, I’ll be there.
