Earth. My true element. As I approach my birthday, for which I share the celebration of our planet, I find my soul drawn to this element. Within these caves, I found rejuvenation and visceral bliss. Approaching the end, I got to experience the caverns in complete solitude. As evening began to set, a family of bats performed their daily ritual, inviting me to watch in awe, as I celebrated my fellow cave dwellers.
The earth truly is a wonder. 🌏🌍🌎
🩵♉🩵
Been really struggling with the whole "need to make a whole thing out of each post I make".
But you know what? I just look cute, so ya. There you go.
#boyswhocry
Post-Playa appreciation post:
This was my 7th burn, yet by far the best one I've had. Focusing here on how I showed up with myself: there were two main aspects which I really want to recognize:
First, Radical Self Expression: I used to feel so invisible. I had no sense of fashion. As a kid I was known for my ripped up ratty brown jacket that was way too big for me.
This burn really presented me with the opportunity to find that style that really feels right for me. The many people that have complimented me on how I dress, only serves to further reinforce my confidence that I've finally figured it out. I embrace my masculine. I embrace my feminine. Finally, I feel like I've found a way to express both in a way that feels and flows naturally. This sense of confidence and self love radiates out and draws others to me. I'm so proud of how far I've come 💜
Second, Immediacy: While I generally live life in a very present-focused way, it's easy for me to get trapped in my own mind. This year I noticed that I kept recognizing how I was in a state of flow and really just going with whatever the burn wanted to present to me at the moment. I actually went into the temple and processed quite a lot, something I never expected to happen. Embracing immediacy so strongly found me engaging with others and placing me in so many fun and random encounters. 🩵
Leaving the playa I've been able to take these two things home with me and manifest them in the rest of my life. And I'm loving life! ❤️
Coming home from such a magical weekend in Kern County, I had a lot of time to reflect upon these past few weeks. I'm just so proud of myself for really putting myself out there, taking myself out of isolation and holding on to my true self with others.
Often times I feel burdened down by the experiences women have to go with the pervasive male culture. I am one who holds my heart on my sleeve and generally just cares about many he comes across but can feel my intentions often misinterpreted. This weekend was a good demonstration to myself that I can be me and be really appreciated for that which I am regardless of the preconceived notions other may have about being a male coming off as a possible "nice guy". I really want to recognize my self for pushing past these stereotypes and just being true my self for caring about others, not expecting anything in return.
It's been quite a bit since I've posted on here. It's good to show the world how much love you can have for your self ☺️
