I honestly can’t believe how far I’ve come. You know… I used to hate myself deeply. Hated the way I looked and hated the direction my life was going because of the decisions and actions I had taken.
But I LOVE that guy on the left now.
He put in the work. He NEVER gave up on himself. Even on his worst days, deep down, he knew he could be more.
He got me here.
And let me tell you this:
Whatever you are currently going through… whatever kind of shit life is throwing at you right now… NEVER stop believing in yourself.
People might not believe in you.
People might make you feel weak.
Like you’re not enough.
Like you’ll never become the person you want to be.
But that shit does NOT matter.
What matters is that YOU believe in yourself. That YOU see your worth. Because the moment you lose hope in yourself… that’s when you truly lose everything.
So don’t.
Keep going.
Keep fighting for yourself.
Keep believing in the person you can become.
I’ve been through moments where I genuinely thought I couldn’t take it anymore. Moments where I felt broken, lost, exhausted and completely hopeless.
But I’m still here.
And not only did I survive it… I became the best version of myself because of it.
And I’m telling you this because I need you to understand something:
You f*cking got this.
If I could go through all the shit I went through and still rebuild myself into someone I’m proud of today… then you can too.
Don’t let this world take your worth from you.
Everything I did differently this time to get in my best shape (FULL TRANSPARENCY):
1. I made a real decision.
Not “I’ll try again”… I decided this is it. I stopped trying to fix the outside and started fixing what’s going on inside. Identity. Self-image. Limiting beliefs. I had to become the person first.
2. I got a coach.
Put my ego aside. Thought I knew enough, I didn’t. If you want to grow, learn from people who are already where you wanna be. Big shoutout to @coachvenomoficial for keeping me accountable and dialed in.
3. I optimized my T levels.
Switched from Nebido → Test E (2x/week). Best decision I’ve ever made. Nebido had me on crazy highs and brutal crashes for YEARS and I didn’t even realize how much it fucked with my mood, hunger, recovery and results. Stable levels changed everything.
4. simplified my diet.
Same meals almost every day. Less thinking, less tracking, just consistency. Made it WAY easier to stay on point.
5. I trained harder.
Actually pushed to failure. Partials when I couldn’t get another rep. Progressive overload. No more half-assing.
6. Peptides.
Using Reta + added others over time. This is NOT medical advice, just my experience. If you go this route, do your research. Dosing, timing, quality — all matters.
Also don’t expect magic. None of this works if YOU don’t.
I’ve tried SARMs/Anavar before (2 years ago) — bad side effects, not worth it for me. Peptides feel completely different FOR ME — but again, that’s my experience.
At the end of the day…
nothing changed until I changed.
