Two years ago, I was in a dark place, stuck in a loop of negative self-talk, battling anxiety and depression. I felt alone, but I didn’t ask for help because I knew nothing external could fix what was going on inside. I was searching for something deeper.
I was hard on myself, overwhelmed, and struggling to see my worth. But even then, there was this small part of me that still loved life. I’ve always loved love. I saw beauty in people and the world because something in me held onto hope. I didn’t know it at the time, but that quiet, persistent pull toward love and light, that was God. His presence was in me, even before I knew Him.
Over time, the darkness made me question if that light was ever real. Until one day, I hit a breaking point. I called my best friend, and she said, “Talk to God.”
So I did. And for the first time, I stopped trying to fix everything myself and let Him in.
When I met Jesus, I finally understood that the love, truth, and peace I’d been craving was found in Him. I realized I’d been chasing purpose and identity through achievement, validation, and hustle but none of it ever filled the emptiness inside. My identity wasn’t something I had to earn. It was something I had already been given.
This past Sunday, I got baptized!!
Baptism represents dying to the old me, the one who was tired, striving, and searching and rising into new life in Christ. When I came up out of that water, it felt like breathing for the first time and He was with me.
I still have days where I fall short but I’m no longer carrying it all alone. God is with me and His grace meets me every time.
That flicker of light I held onto when everything felt heavy, it was Him. Now, it’s no longer just a flicker but a fire I get to live from.
I’m grateful for the journey and for everyone who walked alongside me through it because every part of it led me here 💛
From searching to surrender, from striving to peace, this is the beginning of a new life I’ll walk boldly in. I’m exactly where I’m suppose to be⛓️💥🤲🏼🌅
Romans 8:38-39
26 never felt so good!! We turn a year older every year but everyday is a new day and a chance to become everything we've ever wanted to become. So incredibly grateful for all my friends and family who continue to inspire me everyday, I am so so blessed and lucky 🌈🍀💗
