My camera has always helped me experience the moment. I’m easily overstimulated, a million thoughts at once, words tripping over each other, social anxiety. When I’m holding a camera the volume goes down & I can take in and appreciate what’s infront of me. It holds my hands (literally) & guides me. Without it, especially at social events, I don’t know where to look, where to sit, who to talk too, I have trouble focusing, everything comes in at the same intensity & I get overloaded & exhausted fast.
With everyone holding cameras these days (IG, tiktok, influencers, etc.), cameras have become more associated w/ performance & there’s this assumption that documenting something means you’re removed from it (“put down your camera, you’re not living in the moment.”) when for me it’s been the opposite.
When I was little & didn’t have a camera with me, I’d pretend my eyes were cameras & focus on that, blinking was a shutter. Was almost as bummed about my eyes not being cameras as I was that the stork never dropped off a twin for me like Mary-Kate & Ashley.
Growing up I got teased for always having my camera, but weirdly it never bothered me as much as it does now. Somewhere along the way personal work started carrying this weird weight to it. IG grids, monetization, “shooting for social media,” all of it made something that brought me peace start feeling heavier.
I took these 2 years ago (about a year after opening
@sternastudios & a month before
@theresthreeofthem fell into our laps.) Haven’t touched them or much personal work in years, but trying to find my way back to making time for it while also navigating how I’ve let the world affect my relationship w/ my camera in general <3
Thanks everyone for your patience for the past 2 years 😅🙏🙈
Part 1. Full album available soon.
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