3/3 : 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙍𝙚𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣
Just over a year ago now, I had a photo session with the sublime
@islamarten.studio , and I’ve been sitting on the pictures ever since… I never quite felt the moment was right to post them.
The last couple of years have been the most transformative of my life… the deepest depths of my being have been dug up, bringing to light everything inauthentic about my Self, both conscious and unconscious, that no longer resonates with my Soul.
After a long ride of “unchoosing”, and the more threads I unravelled, a huge wave of identity crisis washed over me, and I felt disdain for the name I went under for over a decade: “Jaco”. I felt insecure about my real name for many years, deeming it “too normal”and “boring”, and chose to change it for stage-related things.
But I finally did a full 180°, and realised this “Jaco” persona had become a huge layer in the way of my authenticity - a character representing old lifestyles, ideas, and ways of being that were no longer me.
Jaco had to go… and Jack Norman is here to stay :) It has felt liberating to reclaim my name.
Wanting a fresh start, I archived my previous posts and began again, returning now after a much-needed break from this app. I hope to find a healthier balance with Instagram, using it to post my projects, share thoughts, and connect in a realer way (without losing myself to brainrot!).
This includes facing a huge fear of mine around “being seen”: posting videos talking directly to camera as myself — NOT hiding behind a character or one of the skits I’ve created… no special effects, no thrills (check out
@handsome.devil.studios for that!) - just me.
These waterfall images feel symbolic - the shockingly cold, kinetic force of the Spring’s water, washing away impurities and masks…
I don’t expect anyone to read this… it’s mainly a timestamp for myself, and a commitment to realness and truth, to putting myself out there more and more, chiselling away at that fear of truly “being seen”.
But if you did make it this far… thank you for your attention. It truly means a lot.
Let us all strive to live a life of pure authenticity… there is nothing quite like it :)
Big Love,
Jack