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Yesterday I lost my second mother. My granny, Beatrice Alvarado who would be celebrating her 80th birthday next week. It’s hard to put into words exactly how much this woman meant to me. She was such a force, she loved with her laughter, she cultivated generations of strong women. My grandmother was an icon, she was everything to us. I hate that I couldn’t be there to see her in her last moments when she needed me. I hate that i live in a world where because of who I have fought to be means that I am unable to see my family, terrified of trying to cross into my home country. This is the biggest loss I’ve ever experienced and it’s made me so aware of our mortality. I know my grandmother would’ve told me to stay in London, I imagine she’d probably tell me to make sure she looked good for her funeral (she was perfect). As I take these first few steps into this new world without her, I think of my mother. To lose a mother is something so unimaginable, but I suppose this is how mothers prepare us. Granny did an incredible job of making sure my mother knew how to raise me into who I became because she was Diane’s left hand. I am blessed to have had her. So may she rest, and join my popo wherever they may be. I ask that you all send positivity and love to my family who is going through the hardest moment. We truly loved our granny, may she rest in peace 🕊️

Aftercare 2026 Some recent notes: I am interested in the economies of desire which structure intimacy. How masculinity is performed, softened, and sometimes undone in private spaces where vulnerability is permitted but rarely named, especially as it relates to a trans experience. This image, entitled Aftercare 2026, is a moment of stillness which carries the weight of intimacy without a resolution. I see the work as less confessional, but more so a record of looking and being looked at from a position which is so often policed or erased. Through these images, I assert a trans gaze that is knowing, one which is deeply invested in the possibility that something real can emerge, especially within systems designed to deny it.

Happy New Year, Here’s to a hopefully much better year. Let it be filled with excitement, success, and a way out of the darkness that was 2025. Xx IB

Performance trailer for “The Loving Smears” 4min 33sec of my 30min performance. I wanted to piece together a version of my performance for the purpose of proposal, so here it is. I’ve been reflecting on this work quite a lot recently as I am keen to perform again, with even more new texts. It feels almost wild to me to think how much has changed in the way we see trans bodies since I initially performed this, so much hate in only a year. A big thanks to @kunstraumlondon @thomascuckle for the support, audio/video, and lighting work💕 as well as @sissyatflat7 Remembering that evening, it was quite magical to have so many dolls from the community present, what a gift. I hope you guys enjoy this snippet, if you have a venue that’s excited to share it, do get in touch. 💋 The Loving Smears is a 5 part one woman show which stems from the artist’s own experience of gender transition, sex work, trauma, and recovery. This performance acts as a chronicle of trans identity in an ever increasingly consumerist and pornographically identified modernity. Utilizing an autoethnographic approach to art making, The Loving Smears re-presents the artist’s body as a living archive, a vehicle through which trans histories, womanhood and the current struggles of gender affirming care are translated. The Loving Smears articulates a multi-layered trans experience, which implicates its social imaginaries as ever morphing, especially now as anti trans rhetoric and legislation seek to conjure a homogeneous public identity. More soon 😘 -IB

…and THAT’s how you do a birthday 😘 Had so much fun holding court with my Theatre des vampires! 🧛‍♀️ Spooky season never looked so good! A huge thank you and all my love to my friends who make this world such a better place. Here’s to the next one 😘 1st photo: @byrneoisin 📸

Spooky season commences ft me at the Mexican Embassy @embamex_gbr 🦇🌙✨ #embajadademexicoenlondres #artistsofinstagram #trans

P 2024 One year anniversary of shooting this with @cat_man.psychic I’m still in the darkroom printing and out in the field shooting with my 8x10. I’ve been writing a lot about the project in full, which will come out here soon 💕 Working between the film and these still images has been so inspiring, I really can’t wait to share finished work soon. Until then 💋 -IB

Hello everyone! I wanted to share more information regarding my ongoing fundraiser toward my upcoming film entitled “A Calendar Of Flowers”. This video offers a more thorough explanation of the project, its intentions, and what I hope to achieve with the work. This lil promo also offers some peeks at BTS imagery and even a few snippets from the film 💕 We really appreciate all of those who have donated and shared the fundraiser and would appreciate your continued support in spreading the word about this work! Support trans artists and connect the dolls to their dreams! A huge thank you to @eivindhansen for his assistance in shooting this promo. All 16mm footage used is captured by the incredible @danyalfoxx an ongoing collaborator in my work. Please check out his profile and send him some love he is incredible. A big thanks to @lastevangel for his gaffer work. All Super8 was shot by yours truly. I look forward to sharing more with you all as we continue to work towards the completion of this film! Big kiss 😘 💋 -IB #Imogen-blue #16mm #fundraiser #super8 #transartists #trans #artistsoninstagram #transpride #donate #share

Here’s a little preview from the second round of our affordable Headshot & Portrait sessions, featuring Mother Superior and Eiv’s best friend; @imogen__blue . Imogen is not only a natural in front of the camera, she’s also a brilliant artist, photographer, and writer. If you ever need someone to support your grant applications, she’s your go-to. #SupportTransBusinesses #tiltyourhead

Still From “A Calendar Of Flowers” upcoming 16mm film Hi All! I was so overwhelmed with the positive response I got from posting some of the stills from the first shoot for my upcoming 16mm film A Calendar Of Flowers. I’ve decided to try to fundraise to be able to finish the work and cover some of the costs associated with its production. I would really appreciate any donations towards the realisation of this project. In a time when trans women are being targeted and attacked for being who we are, supporting work like this allows us to fire back. This work is a testament to the community and I eagerly look forward to sharing it with you all. Support trans women and creatives 💕 and please share this around. Link in bio 🥰 @danyalfoxx - cinematography

Cal 2025 #8x10 #viewcamera #largeformat #photographersofinstagram

Peter 2025 Here’s another snippet of some of my research, a poem by Anne Carson. O Small Sad Ecstasy Of Love I like being with you all night with closed eyes. What luck—here you are coming along the stars! I did a road trip all over my mind and heart and there you were kneeling by the roadside with your little toolkit fixing something. Give me a world, you have taken the world I was. -Anne Carson 1950 #8x10photography #viewcamera #portraiture #love #desire