I just want to leave this here.
Humor is great, of course, but would a dramatic role suit me?
Today I had an impulse: to sit like this in front of the camera and just BE.
I sat there for about 30 minutes, cobbled together a minute and a half clip, and chose sensual soundtrack for more drama. đ
Did I succeed? To touch..
#cinema #audition #actress
Do you say âinsaneâ?
Yes I am. If you believe I am.
I just donât hide my pain,
my joy, my rain, my sun.. I CANâT Should I? âYou must. You must do this,
and this, and donât do this!â
I look around and I can see zombies.
And then I start to do my dance.
Do you say âinsaneâ?
Yes, I am. If you believe I am.
âđ˝ May, 2020
The moment the transformation, the shift, the leap, the shedding begin is The Question: âWho Am I?â.
Confusion at first. Turbulence. The changes are here. Fear. Fear to loose it. Fear of jumping into it.
The mind starts panicking.
More questions. And the answers start coming right away, because they were patiently waiting for their turn to come to you this whole time.
And now you start to understand. Now you know.
And the new you is right here. All you have to do is to take the step and leave fear, doubts and the old you behind.
Its scary. Your body is shaking. And the quiet voice is calling you.
Youâre standing on the top of the waterfall. You donât know whatâs down there, you canât see. And behind you is the familiar quiet river, all the trees you already know, all the stones, all the sounds. Itâs comfortable.
BUT YOU CHOOSE TO JUMP OFF THE WATERFALL ANYWAY.
Because you canât not to.
Because youâre curious.
Because you want to know the truth.
Because you want to know who you are.
AND THERE IS NO WAY BACK.
âDown The Waterfallâ
#film #actress #cinematic #leap
Finding your own path is not for the faint of heart. Itâs the harder path. Itâs easier to just keep doing the same shit over and over again. But what if your soul whispers to take the step? To take courage, leave it all behind in order to find your own path?
WOULD YOU?
#cinematic #retro
Ever since I was a child
I was rebellious. And a big dreamer.
I still am.. Ask my family..lol
itâs in my blood â to set my own rules for myself.
I always believed there was nothing impossible in the world.
Of course Iâve made a lot of decisions which turned out to be lessons leading to my growth.
Highs & lows = Rise & learn
There was a lot of pain along the way, and therefore a lot of healing too.
There were times when I was expressing myself freely but was called âinsaneâ by the people who didnât get me and I often felt lonely. It felt like no one could understand me. And that was okay. At the time I didnât know why that was happening.
Now I know.
What I thought I need to chase somewhere outside was always within me.
Everyone is different. If someone doesnât get me & laughs at me or criticises me or hates me or whatever â I let them. âLet them see themselves, let them hate. Love them anywayâ. Because it has nothing to do with me. Never had. And never will.
Stay true to yourself, TRUST the process, be grateful & just wait until you find YOUR people.
Canât ignore the calling to open up anymore.
expand, expand, expand..
God is so good.
love,
Angel xx
