š I wonāt get you in any shootouts (Maybe. Jk.), but we might have to run for our lives from wildlife š¤£.
Thatās all I could ask for.
#relationships #goals #whimsy #love
Had too much fun as 2nd AD (and makeup artist) for @handlebarfilm Checheur. We make movies over here!
(Prop cigā¦šš I would never)
Thank you @raybizzle91 for le BTS. šø
Hereās my POV! The 12th annual TDE Christmas Concert did NOT disappoint. Kendrick, Dre, and more legends on one stage. #hiphop #tde #tdechristmas #POV
Got to photograph one of my top 5 favorite rappers the other day @mickjenkins š„²š„¹š®āšØ. Iām not crying š.
BORN out on all platforms.
Thank you @pythonp
1st slide šø: @newhighfilmz
Moment of Honesty ⢠275lbs vs. 163lbs (Heaviest 280lbs)
Iāve been experiencing body dismorphia like hell lately. Despite losing a significant amount of weight, I still feel really fat and get discouraged because certain parts of my body donāt look the way I want them to, but then I have to remind myself like āFoo! Of course you donāt have abs yet! Youāre didnāt start in the same place as most people.ā and then I get proud all over again because losing that much weight is NOT easy and because of this, you canāt convince me that I canāt do ANYTHING that I want to in this world. Most of it was lost simply by changing the way I ate and walking (and stress). Even when I did go to the gym it was mainly cardio. People think weight loss surgery is a magical fat-be-gone or somethingā¦NIGGA PLEASE. Itās literally nothing but a forced diet. The surgery itself doesnāt make you lose weight. The fact that you canāt overstuff your stomach and have no other choice but to eat clean does. I donāt eat shit now and broth is my best friend ātil this dayā¦AND you can also gain that weight back. In 2024 I shot back up to 230lbs. In total, Iāve lost over 150lbs since 2021. Iāve been fat more years of my life than āskinnyā. This is still a new world for me tbh. Iāve learned so much about people and have experienced how shallow the world is. Iām grateful for the people who have given me opportunities and the ones who treated me the same then that they do now. I see girls heavier than me and literally think they look perfect and get mad at myself for selling out, but at this point Iām in too deep lol. Iāve lived many lives in many bodies. Fetishized and sexualized in the first picture and worshiped and treated with respect in the second. The crazy part is, Iām still not at my goal. The more I lose, the more my weight goal changes because when I hit those numbers it still doesnāt feel like enough. Still got another 15-20lbs to go before I think Iām ready for toning. If youāve cared to read this far, cool š š«¶š½.