warning: miscarriage & pregnancy loss
almost exactly one year ago, Danny and I started trying to expand our family.
unfortunately, life doesn’t always go as planned.
it’s been a hard year.
a year filled with excitement and anticipation
and a year filled with loss and heartbreak.
a miscarriage in December and a ruptured ectopic pregnancy only four weeks ago.
we didn’t anticipate any of this.
I guess no one really does...
but wanted to share in case anyone else is going through their own fertility struggles
and feels alone.
well, you’re not -
we’re right there beside you,
hoping that you and (selfishly) we get our miracle ✨
sometimes I get frustrated with my need to document so much of their lives
and other times I feel lucky that I get to look back at all these memories
here are just a few from the past few months
I can’t believe it’s been a year since these two cuties joined our family.
I’m having a hard time putting into words how much these two mean to me and also what a year it’s been raising twins and a toddler so I let Dar write this one:
“they’re so cute, they laugh a lot, and we love them so much and we’re so glad they are a part of our family
we love froggy and butt scoocher (their crawling names). happy 1st birthday Ziv & Shai.”
it being the twins’ birth month makes me think back to June 2024.
it was a month after my ectopic rupture and was kind of in shock that we were even attempting an IUI so soon after.
but I figured we better get this ball rolling.
it was now or never.
at the same time, I had a mass in my neck.
and while the likelihood was non cancerous, I was doing as many scans as I could before we went forward with the IUI to make sure it was safe to proceed.
almost everyday involved a blood draw, vaginal exam, an MRI, an ultrasound, doctor appointments.
I couldn’t even fathom everything someone undergoing IVF would need to do.
but here I am over 20 months later, about to celebrate my twins’ first birthday.
I got so lucky that it worked out.
miracles happen (well thanks to modern medicine)
and I just wanted to put this out there in case someone needs a reminder that maybe it will all work out.
in the right time.
#iuijourney
