In the Fall of 2018 I fell into a depressive episode that lasted until Spring 2019. Unable to access healthcare, due to my employment status and age, I was forced to take matters into my own hands. This resulted in a six month period of sobriety, daily 45 minute runs, and the pictures I have been posting over the last month.
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For those of you who have experienced depression on any level, I think you can identify with the anxiety that surrounds interacting with loved ones, and the extreme loneliness that comes with sitting on your couch day after day. Going out and taking photos of strangers, friends, and family was a way for me to combat my anxieties.
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The anxiety I experience, which was the catalyst for my depression, stems from a life long fear of rejection and being ostracized because of something that I have no control over.
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As a result I often come across as closed off and unfriendly. Saying unnecessarily hurtful things about others in order to divert any form of attention from myself. I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to anyone I have hurt.
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Over a year after all this began I am taking the final steps to address the core issue that has affected my fluctuating mental health status. Posting these pictures has helped me build up the courage to be open and vulnerable with all of you.
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Some of you will be happy to hear that I am taking a long break from posting on here. Thank you to everyone for your patience, and being an unwilling participant in my little experiment.
