Ryan rang the bell last week after 2 years of chemo, and 2 months of radiation + chemo ♥️ He is in recovery mode and starting to feel good, looking forward to scans and tests in a month or so to prove his radical remission, hopefully putting an end to 20+ years of a relationship with this fucked up disease 🙏🏽 in addition to managing T1D. We have both worked so hard on acceptance and surrender. In Feb 2024 they told him he’d be eating and breathing out of tubes forever as a best case, yet somehow he kept saying no to all that and powering through from the depths of rock bottom to the ends of the earth. To say we are both transformed is putting it lightly. Still processing this journey, and there will be a lot that comes from this which we are both excited for. But for now we sit in gratitude for our loved ones, doctors and healers. Enjoying the view and taking it all in like a beat up climber smiling in triumph. This isn’t the end and we all have to keep going. Literally nobody does it better than you @otherryanadams and it makes me whole again to see you get to the top.
This sweet throwback to a few weeks ago. Reddit’s top 2 places to scream into the void: the car wash & the Grand Canyon. Decided on the canyon. A worthwhile 36 hour trip. ♥️
Thank you for sharing more than half of your 40 years with me, and for showing us all how to live. Even though I witness it daily, I can’t actually fathom what you carry every day. We all want to take these burdens off your shoulders but instead you give only kindness & generosity. You handle it all so seamlessly, so courageously. I’ve heard your doctors say it’s an honor to treat someone who has not only survived but thrived against all odds. Imagine the honor it is to call you a friend, a son, a brother, a partner. Doesn’t hurt that you’re hot as hell and a gdamn superhero. I love you forever. Happy birthday 💘
Heart is so dang full after celebrating @otherryanadams birthday this weekend. It’s a trip how much the world has changed these last few years, how our circumstances can change so suddenly, & yet how the things that matter most will stay the same. It was perfect 🥹 we are so grateful. Core memz. Let’s do it again soon 💕
The last 6 weeks hit us like a rogue wave.
We bought a house in LA last year as an investment to give us more flexibility for a future that might compensate for the many sacrifices we have made as a couple in our 20s and 30s. We finally felt fortunate enough to think of the next few years without the cloud of cancer looming over us. But life happens like the wind and the waves and then you remember you are a soul riding steadfast through the seasons. It’s easy to spiral down a path of it’s not fair. It’s not about fair. It’s about learning who we are & this experience we get to have on earth. In gratitude. With each other. Aligning our energy and intentions for good. Finding purpose. I still feel like I have a long way to go, but I watch Ryan stand strong through all this, with an unwavering peace, and I know he’s further along than me. It’s such an honor to be your partner in life @otherryanadams especially in times like these. Like many people, im still adjusting to the changes & global trauma of the last few years. I’ve struggled with depression but I know it’ll be ok. I’m putting this out there because I want my community to know what’s happening & to know that I am here for you too. To feel less lonely. To hold myself accountable to pick myself up and keep going. To prioritize joy. Thank you again a million times, y’all know who you are. Special shoutout to our dogs that are carrying us through this ♥️
Our wedding was 6 Years ago today, where the redwoods meet the Pacific Ocean. Before and since that day we’ve forged a life together, now with our dogs, that keeps the promises we’ve made. I look at our first real home together and the way we made it ours—a true sanctuary, safe and solid, beautiful, warm and vibrant with memories, Halloween & Xmas parties, dog parties, always with our favorite music playing in the background over an epic snack spread. It’s bittersweet to celebrate our anniversary knowing the sale pending sign hangs outside. But we’ve gotten real good at making decisions together, and we know it’s time for the next chapter. 🌊 @otherryanadams my True North, I love plotting the course with you. ✨
Happy birthday mi amor @otherryanadams 🌹❤️🔥
2 photos that feel like a dream but really happened. White Sands with the dogs by @psychedelic_blues_film , one of my favorites of our family. And the other, a blurry selfie at a dive bar in Florida during a very challenging, transformative and beautiful time. You’ve proven that you can make the best of every situation, wherever life takes you. I’m deeply honored to be your partner in every journey. May all your dreams come true ✨You are soul-loved.
Sorry for getting drunk and embarrassing you last night at the most expensive meal of our lives 😬 it wasn’t technically your bday so, can I live 🤪
