God was with me through every season but I was so blinded by the world, I never saw Him. All I saw was a hole that I used everything to try and fill, modeling, lust, sex, weed. Anything that could quench this desire for love and connection. If I never hit rock bottom, I would’ve never allowed God in. He never left. I separated myself. Thank you Jesus for saving my life.
On top of the Bible, y’all should really read The Four Loves by CS Lewis.
It’s provided me so much insight into the beauty and inner workings of God’s heart.
One day I’m on top of the hill and the next day, I’m in the valley. Sometimes both in the same hour. Real faith is not dependent on your feelings, but on the amount of trust and surrender you have in God‘s character.
You can’t borrow someone else’s faith, he must have your own personal relationship with him. And that’s only built through reading the word, praying, and spending genuine time with the Father.
““Watch therefore, for you know neither the day nor the hour in which the Son of Man is coming.”
Matthew 25:13
We follow the law as a response to His Grace not to gain it. This is something I struggled a lot with, and honestly, I still do sometimes. It’s easy to fall into self righteousness, and it’s easy to fall into a religious spirit. But God’s grace is sufficient, and He doesn’t stop working on us until the work is finished ❤️
