I was always the light I was searching for ✨
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📸: the one and only @offleashstudio@sarasom ily
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#bodybuilder #imgmodels #victoriasecretangel #modelscouts #loveislandusa
A love letter to the sport that saved my life.
Last year taught me the hardest lesson of my life —
any relationship can be replaced.
Friends. Lovers. Environments.
But the relationship you have with yourself?
That’s the one that stays.
I used to feel like a lost puppy.
Like a freak in a world full of people I had no desire to become.
Everyone had their nose in my business.
Everyone wanted me to be “normal.”
I’m sorry I didn’t want McDonald’s at 4 a.m. after a bad club night.
I’m sorry I didn’t find joy in drinking just to feel something.
I’m sorry I wanted discipline.
Growth.
Standards.
Intensity.
I’m sorry my hunger for more made people uncomfortable.
But here’s the truth.
I was never crazy.
I was just misplaced.
Now I’m around my people.
And suddenly… I’m not “too much.”
Suddenly discipline is respected.
Tracking food is normal.
Big goals are attractive.
Being obsessed with growth is admired.
Funny how when you’re in the right room,
you stop feeling broken.
That sport was never just a hobby.
It lives inside me.
Prep feels like oxygen to my lungs.
Stepping on that stage isn’t vanity, it’s alignment.
I breathe differently when I’m locked in.
I move differently.
I love differently.
My heart is finally full.
Not because of someone else —
but because I came home to myself.
I’m “normal” now.
Normal in a 1% world.
And to myself —
thank you for not giving up.
Thank you for choosing discipline over distraction.
Thank you for saving your own life.
See you on stage. 🖤
#gymshark66 #bodybuilding #bikiniathletes #fitmodelposing #cpabikini
@king_kong_wong Thank you for having me today. Beyond grateful to be part of the best community I could have asked for.
Right now I’m just beyond grateful, beyond blessed, beyond proud. I have no other words. Just gratitude. Love in my entire body heart and soul. Light and joy. WE DID IT. WE ARE GOING TO NATIONALS 😭🎉💜
I wouldn’t be here without people who made it possible. I’ll keep it short for this post. And save everything for later because it’s 2 am, but I just want to say THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO WAS PART OF THIS JOURNEY.
It’s just the beginning…
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#CPAFitModel #CPANationalsQualified #BodybuildingChampion #FitModelChampion #StageReady #FirstPlaceWinner #StageQueen #CPA2025 #CanadianPhysiqueAlliance #PeakWeekSuccess #HardWorkPaysOff #RoadToNationals #SheDidThat #FitModelCanada #FitnessJourney #bodybuilding #inspirational #gymrat
Prep isn’t hard… you’re just not mentally ready for it.
I said what I said. IT IS NOT AS PHYSICAL AS IT IS MENTAL.
If you’re a first-time competitor, in prep, or just a gym girl trying to stay consistent — this is the part no one prepares you for.
Because prep isn’t about workouts.
It’s about what happens in your head when you’re tired, hungry, flat, and over it.
I didn’t suddenly become “disciplined.”
I built habits that made prep feel easier:
I romanticized cardio so I’d actually show up
I made posing + steps part of my routine, not a chore
I chose outfits that made me feel confident in the gym
I turned hydration into a non-negotiable
And slowly… everything shifted.
Because the truth is the girls who win prep aren’t just leaner… they’re mentally stronger.
These 12 mental hacks changed everything for me.
They’re what keep you consistent when motivation is gone.
Save this for the days your mind tries to quit before your body does.
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#bodybuildingprep #glowupjourney #firsttimecompetitor #bikiniprep #fitmodelprep
Another propaganda for girls who want a jacked back.
#disciplineovermotivation✅️ TODAY WE ARE 15 DAYS OUT OF MY FIRST BIKINI COMP! LIFE IS GOOD! CANT WAIT 😭❤️🔥 time flew by like crazy, but I am more ready than ever..
See you May 30th ✨
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#gyminspiration #prepseason #girlswholift #backworkouts
Prep Diaries: 19 days out 🖤
A week of bodybuilding prep, gym sessions, fasted cardio, birthday workouts, way too much caffeine, random emotional support benches, and trying to maintain a personality outside of the gym.
Thank you to everyone getting me through prep right now 🤍Special thank goes to …. @deadeddy97 for being there for me, and my BESTIE @anththeagent for literally saving my life for the last 2 months.
Wearing the new @hd.muscle apparel drop that I got for my birthday ✨ Use code Flash if you wanna look hot and financially responsible (^link in bio^)
Also shoutout to @drinkryse root beer flavor for keeping me mentally stable during Prep.
And of course, @nrghaus for becoming my favorite recovery/social spot ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
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#prepdiaries #bodybuildingprep #bikiniprep #gymgirl #fitnessjourney
You keep waiting for a sign, a glow up, a perfect moment, a different life. But nothing changes until you do.
Change your mindset. Change your habits. Change the way you speak to yourself. Stop chasing people who already let go.
Stop romanticizing your old self. The version of you that gets everything you want? She moves differently.
No magic. No shortcut. Just discipline, healing, confidence, and deciding you deserve more.
This is your reminder to lock in, move on, hit the gym, protect your energy, and become the girl you keep dreaming about. ✨
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#mindsetshift #glowupjourney #becomingher #selfgrowth #discipline
29 days out 🤍 Honestly, at this point I’m so behind with daily vlogs that you guys get one from Thursday! WEEKLY VLOGS COMING UP 🤣
I never felt like I had to “survive” prep.
I love my routine, but I also love LOVEEE & my people. @anththeagent literally my prep sister at this point 💙 ILY, thank you for getting me through it every day.
@ilonaverley I love you so much 🩵 thank you for making me live a little!!
@boathedragqueen you are just iconic🩵 ty for making me laugh :)))
Being around my people, my chosen family, my friends… that support matters.
I isolated myself fully during my first prep, and even tho it was needed at that time, this time prep is just autopilot. You learn how to be quick, efficient, and manage all your daily tasks better. So, then you can still have time and be around people you love ❤️
SEE YOU MAY 30th
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#FirstTimeBikiniCompetitor #BikiniPrepJourney #NPCBikiniPrep #BikiniCompetitionPrep #prepseason
29,28,27 DAYS OUT ✨ THIS IS WHAT I LEARNT.
The other day my friend asked me, “why would you put yourself through this?”
And it actually made me think.
Because for the past few years, I’ve been very aligned with a different way of living — more flow, more presence, less force. Taoism, non-attachment, being at peace with what is.
And then there’s prep… which looks like the complete opposite.
It’s structured. It’s uncomfortable. It pushes you mentally, physically, emotionally.
But I realized something — I don’t resonate with the word discipline anymore.
This feels like devotion.
Devotion to myself.
Devotion to growth.
Devotion to becoming someone I haven’t met yet.
I’m not chasing an outcome. I’m not suffering through this.
I’m experiencing it.
And what I’ve learned is this:
You don’t have to hate prep to succeed.
When you feel aligned with what you’re doing, your body responds differently.
You recover better. You feel stronger. You actually enjoy the process.
You can have hard training days and still love your life.
You can push yourself and still take care of yourself.
Love, support, presence — that’s what people underestimate.
Don’t isolate yourself. Don’t run from yourself.
Be present in it. Feel it. That devotion will carry you further than force ever will.
Prep isn’t just physical.
It’s a reflection of how you choose to live.
See you May 30 💙
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#BikiniPrepJourney #FirstTimeBikiniCompetitor #NPCBikiniPrep #BikiniAthleteMindset #PrepWithPurpose
30 days out.
This was Wednesday.
Come with me to Wendy’s… because that iced coffee?
Sometimes it’s the only thing keeping me sane.
On the hardest days, it’s the smallest “treat” that keeps me going. and also @fatty_13 thank you for being so sweet and supportive 🩷😭I would have hated that gym without u there!
Also… I officially signed up.
IT IS REAL NOOOWWW !!!
If you want to come support me, DM me — I’ll send you the ticket link 🤍
Had a posing session in the morning… with my fav posing coach @natmarieposing 🩵🩵🩵
but of course I forgot to film it.
So instead you get me being a clown, trying to pose and figure it out as I go.
Also, had some family time and got to see my pookie @ilonaverley I love you 🩵 thank you for spending time with me and getting me through this stage of my journey!!
ALSO, @boathedragqueen I WILL DEFINITELY TRY THAT CHOCOLATE AFTER MY COMP 😭🩵u made me crave it.
And somehow… this is episode 7.
I can’t believe I’ve stayed this consistent.
If you haven’t seen the others yet — go watch from the start.
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#girlswholift #fitgirlmotivation #strongnotskinny #musclebuildingwomen #bikiniprepjourney
31 days out from my first bikini competition… and yeah, I was already feeling it.
A little behind on posting, but this was my Tuesday.
Simple. Disciplined. Locked in.
My go-to meal lately:
0 calorie oil spray
25 calorie pasta
Scallops for protein
That’s it.
Nothing fancy. Just consistency.
When you’re this deep in prep, it’s not about variety.
It’s about showing up — every single day.
Easy enough to repeat.
Hard enough to stay committed.
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#bikiniprep #prepseason #bodybuildinglifestyle #cpabikinicompetitor #girlswholift
