In what is possibly the biggest announcement of my life, I am THRILLED to finally share that Iāll be singing harmonies in Tori Amosās incredible band for her international tour next year. Tori is an absolute visionary and has made an undeniable impact on not only my music, but music as a whole. I cannot believe this is real. A dream come true. š Thank you to @toriamos and @jonevansmusic and everyone on Toriās beautiful team.
AND Iāll be sharing the stage with @hadleykennary and @livgibson . (We called the group chat ~Toriās Angels~ and weāre never ever changing it. š¼š»)
UK/EU dates announced. US dates coming soon.
me in amsterdam through the lens of @collin.p.ng š· (Iām never leaving and Iām gonna buy a houseboat on the canal and stay here forever ok it is decided)
I donāt even know what to say. @bbcradio2 piano room with @toriamos this week was everything. As was every other minute of our time rehearsing and being in each otherās energies. Thank you to @jonevansmusic and the whole team. I am so moved to be a part of something so spectacularly alive. See you on tour. ā¤ļøāš„š Full video of the BBC Radio 2 set is at the link in my bio.
One year without my mom today. The world is not the same. I am not the same.
There are some days that I am angry. I am jealous of everyone who can do things like talk to their mothers on the phone. I am jealous, on behalf of my mom, of anyone who got to have gray hair and enjoy the last two decades (or more) of their life. The old women working on their puzzles and using their senior discounts at the movies and walking slowly and participating in the softness that is the gradual decrescendo of their earthly form. My mom will stay eternally young.
And my grief continues to teach me that the word āwithoutā is subjective.
I found her every day for months in the ladybugs that visited my bedroom window. First, one at a time. Then in groups. I tried to explain this away but couldnāt.
I found her in the Grand Canyon. The full moon that was coincidentally there the night I arrived. (I find her in the moon a lot. She loved James Taylor and called my sister and I her āmoonlight ladiesā.)
I find her in the ocean. The dolphins at sunrise in Carpinteria.
I find her in spontaneity. In unexpected humor. Yesterday, in the very moment that I was crying and releasing flowers into the ocean in her memory, a strangerās bluetooth speaker started playing the Cha-Cha Slide. I am certain this was her doing.
I find her in my family. My sister. My niece. My dad. Everyone who loved her. I find her in my own laugh and speaking voice. The way I dance and make my coffee. Sometimes I wonder if weāve all absorbed her essence. Like a prism. Her light is not gone. It is refracted. It is changed. It is dispersed. Magnified. Everywhere.
If you knew her personally, will you share a story? There is so much to remember. š¤
Holy shit, hi. Thank you for all the love and enthusiasm about the @toriamos tour. š I feel like Iām floating. It is a deep honor to be a part of the sonic universe she has built.
If youāre new here, I am so happy we found each other. My name is Deni and I make music under the name Fire Swimmer.
Currently: laying in the golden hour sun with my dog, working on my debut album, listening to āFrom The Choirgirl Hotelā on repeat (itās my favorite at the moment but it changes every day).
I went on a hike today and then took these pictures in the yard. I couldnāt pick one, so you get four.
How is your heart? What is alive in you today?
yeah okay the thing is i love you guys and i love music and i love making little worlds and i love ider and that was just a dream come true. thank you for being so kind to be and for being hot and showing up early and singing along and letting me be a part of your world. if you discovered me through these shows, i am so happy we found each other. š§š»
(also iāve been hard at work on new music. itās almost ready hehehe. i cannot wait to show you.)
