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2/22/23. The day I hoped would never come. I haven’t had the capacity to process it all yet, but today as we celebrated her life, I felt it was a proper time to share… My grandmother means the entire world to me. As with a lot of children born to first-generation immigrant parents, my grandmother moved here from Thailand to care for me while both my parents went to work. The daunting task of leaving all the familiarities of Thailand and moving across the world to care for her only grandson was one that she happily took on, and for that I will be forever grateful. The majority of my core memories from my youth involve her. From walking me home from school everyday and teaching me how to spell the days of the week to purchasing my first car for me. There was nothing she wouldn’t do to ensure my happiness. She became my rock. A constant source of warmth and stability for me throughout a somewhat tumultuous childhood. Always reassured me that everything would be ok, and that I could always count on her. I recognized early on her selflessness and pure love for me. She made me feel understood even when I couldn’t understand it all myself. I couldn’t have asked for more. She always reminded me that one day she’d be gone, and as much as I didn’t want to believe her … it made me realize early on that our time together was limited. I vowed from that very moment that I’d spend every possible moment I could with her, and in those moments I wasn’t able to be with her … I only hoped that I was making her proud. Selfishly, I wish I could hold onto her forever, but ultimately know that she’s now at rest and no longer in pain. The motions of sadness, joy, anger, regret flow through me daily along with an endless amount of tears. It’s hard to grasp that the world continues to move on when you’ve lost the person that meant the world to you. I miss her so much.

June Wuz WeiRRrd. 🌴😷✈️🛍🍋

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ByEee #2021. Basically spent the year in the streets. #2022 Please do me right. 😅

It be like that sometimes ... 🌺

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Sundazeee 💧

I went to #Disneyland last week. I hadn’t been since Grad Night 2004. I’m thrilled in this picture (seriously)! Thanks @laurenlauigan for encouraging me to go. #badbitchesonly #printsplease #printscharming

Help! Do #tbt posts help relieve post-vacation depression? 😑 #takemeback

“Never Coming Back” (Until the 30th). 🙄

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Today my @laurenlauigan is embarking on a new chapter in her life. From intern to assistant to bff binch, I love you ever so dearly! I admire your courage and determination and know that the future has so much in store for you! Thank you for always encouraging me to live my best life, and remember I'm only a phone call away for whatever you may need. NEVER HESITATE! #ILYSM #IMYSM and will see you very soon 🤗 #k #byefelish #ciaoferisca 💔♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔♥️💔