Thank you 2025 for being a roller coaster of a year. Learning to say yes to more opportunities. Working on remaining present to appreciate all the moments I have. And a big thank you to everyone who made this year the ride it was! I can’t wait to see what comes in 2026. Happy New Year everyone and be safe!
Since being injured for the last month and now being sick this week, I have still been focused on pushing myself creatively and just using photography as my therapy like it originally was to me. Whether it be showing you all the dreams I try to chase, or now being less afraid to show the ghosts and demons I don’t necessarily talk about.
Damn is it cathartic and fun.
I was debating for a long time on starting to pursue creating some darker imagery, and honestly I do plan to make more. I know I also don’t hide that I am clinically depressed and tend to just put on an emotional mask when it’s required of me. My head spins a lot faster at times than I show. I don’t care about pity, but more just want to remind everyone you never know what people go through in their life.
You don’t have to like or understand the silent battles I am trying to portray, but for those that do you’re not alone. This year broke me in ways I haven’t talked about with everyone and thats ok. I have taken my time to process things and ask for help when I needed it. And to be clear, my life has been pretty good lately. Life is a roller coaster and embracing all of it is what makes us human. But my life is by no means perfect and I will embrace the good and the bad. I fight my demons to chase my dreams and sometimes the cost of that is staying up with the nightmares, but I absolutely would NOT trade my life with anyone else’s.
Despite still feeling sick physically, I am excited to force myself back to practice tomorrow and try to get back on the saddle again. My life is fencing and photography. I will always be grateful for that while I continue pursuing both to any degree. If you read all of this I want to thank you for being a real one and I hope you can appreciate my pictures to some degree lol🖤
My ankle hurts now but I’m still focused on living the dream. Sure I am frustrated but life has been good despite the minor set back at the moment. I’m still excited for things to come and focused on whats next, so I feel no need to be down and out about how this last weekend went in competition. Now enjoy this photo dump of so many things from the last several weeks of my life that remind me to be grateful for everything, both the highs and lows.
This is just a glimpse into my daily life. I’m still in it for the love of the game and enjoying the process as much as I can. Thank you fencing for always being my escape. I feel so blessed to let this sport take up 95% of my life in one way or another.
River stands on me like I am standing on business. I am starting to get back into conditioning right now in the offseason and plan on getting back to training full time soon enough. But here are some pics from my crazy and extremely hectic life outside of fencing lately. Everything from band practice with @_redskywarning_ , to music videos with @ivypacific , to cars and bikes, and of course tattoos still with my boy @lyjahvaatete .
I love that I get to live this lifestyle and keep building at things that I feel like are fun and meaningful to me. I don’t work to live and I don’t live to work. I get to experience my life through my work with both my camera AND fencing. I really wouldn’t have it any other way even with all its own unique obstacles. We all deal with our own challenges and my life isn’t all perfect, but holy shit my life is fun.
I am also so excited to be in New York City at the end of this month. And yes, I am absolutely bringing my camera with me. So if anyone wants to hit ya boy up with cool spots to take pics or want to have pics taken of, let me know! If you read all of this you are deeply appreciated and I hope you have a blessed week!
