I've been having to dig back into my time at CalArts, and I stumbled upon this self portrait that was part of an assignment. I wonder where this painting is now?
When I look back on that time in my life, it makes me feel grateful for being able to go there, and also sad because I'm seeing a younger, even more vulnerable version of myself who was not well-equipped to handle the challenges that were coming. Sometimes I think, if I had stayed there, would all the bad things that happened to me after I left not have happened? Maybe my life would be so different now. But we can't know.
I do feel that what I am doing now is making up for lost time and trying to repair my life, and all the broken dreams that were shattered along the way. I may have been presented with a unique set of challenges due to neurology, trauma, socioeconomic status, karma. I'm out here doin' my best! I owe it to this little Emily.
DRAWING SALE!!! Here is the first batch of some pieces that are available. Please dm me if interested! Thank you! 🖤🤍🖤
Shipping is from Germany.
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