Bro, after this session I cried a few times. Basically God fanned a flame that was about to go out. I never wanted to quit engineering completely, there were just things I no longer enjoyed about it that made me want to go after the things I did enjoy. I no longer wanted to give engineering all my time and devotion. I no longer wanted to sacrifice sleep, working out, eating healthy, and memories outside of work. I no longer agreed with how music was made. I no longer wanted to sacrifice creativity. I no longer wanted to operate how I was operating, not handling much of my affairs outside of engineering. And I definitely no longer wanted to move forward without God, without His guidance and peace. I felt like I grew past a lot of things I once was okay with but then all of hell broke loose and in navigating through that, it started to put out my passion for it. But God kept encouraging me to keep going. After this session I understood how everything good and bad was working together. I was in awe and could only cry.
John 13:7 Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”
Romans 8:28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.
The fire inside of you has to be greater than the furnace you’re in 🔥💕
revelation of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and the furnace found in Daniel 3 via Charlotte Gambill Church of the Highlands
1 John 4:4 “You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.”
Hebrews 12:29 for our “God is a consuming fire.”
photo taken in Feb.
I’m understanding strength from God isn’t so much a feeling but the ability to keep going when you want to stop, or when you’re tired, overwhelmed, or just over it. I would stop working and pray for strength, like it was just gonna come and empower me to complete the task 😩🤦🏾♀️😂. Strength comes when we pray and keep going. You may still feel the same but when you look up and have completed the very thing you were about to “take a break from,” or “do later,” you’ll know that your strength came from God because you didn’t stop even though you wanted to.
Scripture
Psalm 22:16-19
16 Dogs surround me, a pack of villains encircle me; they pierce my hands & my feet. 17 All my bones are on display; people stare & gloat over me. 18 They divide my clothes among them & cast lots for my garments. 19 But you, LORD, do not be far from me. You are my strength; come quickly to help me.
This passage was written by David while in distress but it also points to Jesus and what was to come. Just imagine if Jesus got off the cross and was like okay God, please give me strength to finish.
SN: My little setup in my bedroom. One laptop for music & post production, the other for editing videos
I stopped checking for any new or updated riaa certifications, last time I checked and posted was March 2019. Was going through a lot and didn’t care. Kinda lost my way through all the pain and didn’t know how to handle what I was going through. My passion was gone and I was burnt out. But Jesus reminded me of my purpose and the gifts He has given me. “Pause if you must, but don’t stop.” 🎚💕
