We just cannot stop watching the newest @fijiwater ad that is featuring “Adrenaline” from @elleeduke , @babybugsofficial , and @naebird.wav . If you get addicted to the energy of this song, make sure you check it out on all streaming platforms! Thank you to our partners at FIJI for making this happen! AND a special shout out to @mattmug for this huge opportunity! Giddy up!!!
I put this song out in 2022, “Deeper,” wrote it in my living room at the height of my faith crisis when I realized I actually had no clue what I believed
All I knew was I wanted to stop hiding and be known for who I truly am whatever that took and whoever I had to lose to get there
One of the moments that blew it all up for me was when my uncle took his life in 2018. He was a songwriter and an artist. An icon! He was also gay and had a rough time with the Mormon church’s stance, and ultimately it was his choice to go the way he did, but the affect a lifetime of what he was told to believe about himself had was undeniable in his decision and that has about taken me out man
I love when I get the comment, “you leave but you can’t leave it alone.” A huge reason I continue to talk about my story is because of his story and how that has affected the way I see people. Like we are actually just unique beings trying to find our way through life on a floating rock what the actual fuck
I know there are many people struggling feeling like they have no choice. You feel scared and alone. The fear can be so overwhelming to the point it starts affecting every aspect of your life and your mental health goes down the drain. What will my family say? What will they do? Will I have anyone?
I had an experience where I was begging God to tell me what to do and I got radio silence for months. But I did have a strong peaceful feeling a while after that I should go wherever I can be the brightest, fullest version of myself, because if I’m healthy and thriving I will be much more affective in this world to myself and those around me than if I’m a depressed miserable shell. (I think it might’ve been my uncle👼)
And that’s a peak into the journey I’ve been on for the last 7 years. That’s not everyone’s answer, and I respect that. But that was mine and since being on this side of it I can say I find elite parking everywhere I go, I stay blessed, and I feel a fire for life that I was missing for a long time
There’s beautiful shit ahead friends and I am proud to say I’m proof of that. I also left the Mormon church to smoke drink and party
