“A dream song ever heard in echoes, from far away..
Aching bones turning to dust,
the doorway awaits
inherent sorrow of beauty,
tenderness lost to abrasion,
the journey home,
so far, in an instant, every instant..
Volcanic rage of grief, erupting belligerence,
A lost child, a firefly roaming in the deep dark wilderness,
A solitary tree standing on the edge of a mountain, seeing time, being time..
Time.”
These were some of the qualia explored in the performance.
Sub(conscious)body butoh entered my life in 2011. For the next 3.5 yrs, I immersed myself in this world, and the journey transformed me fundamentally.
This performance was in Delhi, at the end of a year of intensive immersion and training at the Subbody Butoh School in Dharamsala.The stage was very small, and the setting was very intimate. The performance too, turned out to be so..
My teacher, and as we’d call it, midwife, Rhizome Lee, would always remind us: "Be life, Drop your mask of human/man/woman, drop your ego, become life". Subbody butoh is a dance of life: one doesn't move in Butoh, one is moved. Much of the practice involves quieting one's egoic mind, sinking into the multidimensional ‘darkness of body’, the subconscious, and being moved by the subtlest of subtle tendencies, whilst keeping a ‘transparent eye’: awareness of all the worlds one moves through, internally, and externally.
10 years hence, as I restart my practice, I am developing a deeper and deeper understanding of everything I learnt there with him, and other resplendently beautiful co-bodies, who shall always be close to my heart. I share this with deep gratitude to life, for having been so kind, even in her most intense.
I have not been good at sharing/collating my work. So many albums,projects, performances have been lost to my listlessness and reclusiveness with the waking world.
A dream-child's nightmare is never to have walked awake.
As I come to life, I am collecting those lost threads, hoping to weave a tapestry through them..Hopefully my Insta communication would get better, as I share more works.
TW: this might get intense for some, at certain points.
https://youtu.be/F2fW9w8pMg8?si=OS7pZK11fKDIIE9p
1 year ago