So, taking music seriously, terrifying
I was raise by musicians and strayed from the path for fear of failure in truth
Here i am, return-ed (lol)
Here's the bit though, I do this for myself now, for fun, for merriment and the love of the sound and the craft
God, doing what you love is so spooky, but let me give it a go
Happy Birthday to the greatest love and the kindest heart I've known
I've never known a person like you
Who believes in people even when in doubt
Who sees kindness even in the hardest of places
Who works to repair rather than to replace
It is a privilege to age another year with you <3
So this was wild
This is Crow on the Cradle by Mary Black
My parents raised me on this type of music and I fear they succeeded in influencing me
Anyway, hope you can't tell how nervous I was
Had some scrolling technical difficulties, but on the whole it was an awesome time
I'm gunna say it
I love my job
I love my life, waking up soar and tired and not wanting to get up and getting up anyway because I want to learn and I want to grow and become something more than I was when I started
It's strange to be proud of myself because I am constantly embarrassed as I make mistakes and try and try, again and again
I feel a fool half the time trying to learn to do things so I do not have to be a fool forever
I am tired most of the time, my limbs feel like jello, I come home caked in sawdust and (sorry for this) I hack up said saw dust (like a lot)
But man
To love a job is weird because money and responsibility and various other pressures but to genuinely enjoy the process of what it teaches you and the folks you get to works with and learn from?
Rare, rare indeed
I think this is what a happy brain is supposed to feel like, full disclosure
Stealthy photo creds to my boss @kevinjacksonco
Haven't posted in like 10 years..... The prodigal son returns
Here's some of my favorite pics from the past couple years, feat. my favorite person and my favorite creature
Some fun facts:
- i'm 26 tabs away from knowing 600 songs on guitar (some of those are certainly repeats for tabs vs chords)
- i took 2 guitar lessons when i was like 12 and never got the hang of doing the scales they tried to make me do so everything i have learned since then was 100% me myself and i (im alright, j havin fun)
- i almost never practice before recording bc i will get annoyed with myself and give up so you must enjoy this poorly rehearsed filth or nothing at all (for example this song's tab I saved 2 years ago, August 23')
- i am very loud and (so claims my best friend) "vibrant" (she's smarter than me so i have to believe her and hope thats a complement as I'd like to take it) and it is hard to stiffle that noise and color especially when told one should be quiet
- i struggle to sit still
- i love love love love music and i don't think without it I would have or could now survive (u can pry my guitar away from me kicking and screaming)
